the LOUNGE

2004-04-29T01:49:00.000-07:00

I DON'T LIVE HERE ANYMORE!!

I'VE MOVED!! IF YOU WANT TO KNOW MORE..GO TO

http://www.livejournal.com/~moviesaremylife

2003-11-01T07:24:00.000-08:00

PUTANG INA!!

my phone got stolen in tianamen!!!!! fuck!! first expensive phone that i had and actually used my own money for...

i will always love and miss my baby.. this halloween was a complete disaster..dont want to talk about it.

2003-10-26T07:37:00.000-08:00

ABRA CA DABRA

Talking on the phone i realize that things are not as over as i thought it would be. uncomfortable feeligs and pretentions are still lurking in my mind. i dont know what to do anymore. i know things are ok but there are still some things that i would like to get off on but can't.

after reading lulu's blog, i realize that i love to drink because that is the one time that i can be myself without caring if i hurt someone or had hurt myself in that matter. you just let out whatever the fucking crap you're thinking without thinking, if this will ruin me forever. that is the one thing that i regret not doing. not having a finalize conversation on what really happened. although please have it with drinks if there will come a time because i need to let everything out.

when you came into my room unexpectedly, everything that i wanted to say just completely vanished. it may be a good thing, but there is such a concept as collective unconcious as adler or whoever the fuck might say. i am not pinpointing you but it is just one of those situation. i can imagine that it will forever take time for me to be back to the old days, but hey. at least we got the present.

ABRA CA DABRA, you think its gone. but its still there.

DRINKING is like BLOGGING! you say whats on your mind, and will soon realize why the hell did i publish this for eveyrone to see?!

note to the COOLEST of COOL, lulu, you made me realize that blogging is not for pleasing everyone that i know will be reading but for myself and my own opinions. thanks!

Enough to the bitter ramblings and on to my weekend journal.

thank god for monday and thursday. finished the tests. although i'm not sure i passed the second one.

although it isn't good, it just feels great that you did good in a test that you know everyone took a beating on. makes you think that you are above someone, once in a while. i took this psychology test and it said that i really am in need of personal admiration. so people. feel free to compliment me anytime! hahahaha. im just kidding. its more on being proud of your accomplishments. i really think that i am one of the lowest of the low sometimes that i just dont know what to do anymore. i seem to not point out my negative feelings towards anything seeing that i am scared of being rejected or again looked down on. i let people think that i dont care what they say about me but it really does affect me. good or bad. damn! self concious fuck. hay...

oops. back to my ramblings. oh god. i guess i have too much angst. need i say dawson's creek?!

friday, watched kontrabanda which was great!! i didn't know that there were at least a few liberal minded people. and im not talking about sex you pervs! in la salle. it was a great to see a different crowd. people in the liberal arts try to think so high or should i say conyo of themselves. stick to one. when people were to cheer of what department they were in that place, i would say that there were none or at least few, includding us, in CLA or CBE. most came from COS or COE. i dont know if it sounds mean, but i am a part of the CLA crowd, so again bashing one's self. its just that it was nice to see a different side of la salle. more open to other things is the better phrase.

then went to grilla for some drinks, as read in loks i thought it was just me lok and chard. so bonding is in. just like last friday with chard. chard is like a girl because he talks too much! hahaha. but that's good because i like to talk. but still he is a guy with a lot of opinions, in which are too perverted but hella funny. lots of guys went, guys that i didn't know that didn't even bother to talk to me and lok even chard and marco! fucking a-holes! just came for the free beer and ciggies. fucking ass. if i didnt know any better, it'd be like they were lovers, on how they just kept talking and talking to themselves for 3 to 4 hours! i dont care if they didnt talk to us, but at least talk to the guys who invited you!

anyways had fun at grilla but hadn't drank that much as planned because these guys just kept on hogging all the beer! damn!! and i paid! fuck..hay...oh well but at least had fun thanks to marco and chino and chard and mito and his cuz.

saturday, lu woke me up! uso na ba ang going in the room with either nothing on or a duster!? hahaha. no worries. surfed a little, talked a little, then took a bath, went to qc hall, registered in less than a hour! woo hoo! i LOVE district 3. dont worry lok, my dad said that qc hall is one of the most organized compared to the others. kasi for the others everyone in all districts one by one in one room! imagine! went to BIG R in robinsons! and what a nice place! i really liked the supermarket! damn!! that was one hell of supermarket! it was like i was loose in a candy store, only it was all frozen food and chips! yummy! god..its like times 2 of uni mart! and uni mart is big! more like s n r but more complete!
cinema was great. loved the seats, better than rockwell, because i really dont like the seats there. too airplane like! :( i and i'm not talking about leg space ppl, granted it is shorter than in galleria, dont know why people insist on watching in some malls, where its more expensive and stiffer seats. hay...pa=conyo perhaps? i understand if its location wise. hell i'd go there. but to others..i dont know

then took lu home which was not as far as i thought. or probably far but i didnt get lost! so its now ok to drive you home. although not all the time! wag magabuso! hahahahaha

agreed to meet up with lance in tapika for some drinks. didnt go as planned although i was dressed and already went out of the house thinking that he was there. turns out he was calling because his car got stranded in the intersection of libis, santolan and katipunan. damn lance! dont worry its all for the better! first ride ako ok!? sa corolla of course!

that was about it, wes woke me up, whats up with that!? and played simpson's hit and run which i am now officialy addicted! inuunahan ko na nga sila pat and wes, and i'm a girl! ps2 has never been so much fun. oh and nba live 2004! damn! ganda! :) went to dad's for lunch in banawe, tiongkee duck house because i so wanted roasted duck. saw this doccumentary on how roast duck is made, didnt know it took to much time and skill to make one. and how it is such a grand cuisine that they start training gifted people from the age of 14 to make these special ducks. only 4 out of 66 are chosen.

duck yet superbly hearty meal! :)

2003-10-12T05:33:00.000-07:00

Fantas-TIC

Friday saw american wedding, and let me tell you that i wasn't at all happy with the outcome. yes it did have its funny and grossed out moments, but while i was watching the film, which i was really excited for seeing that i love both prequels, i was finding myself becoming sleepy, and more of forcing myself to laugh out loud, siyempre we're in a movie house with actual people. the few perks that you get watching a movie in a cinema. was with kim and mia which was all good. and with wes, jolene and gil.

saturday morning, was just taking a bath before going to mamitz to have my girls day out with her, when fucking ass, i saw jeelai in my room! of course i was so shocked since we still weren't in terms with one another, but hey, i saw this coming. just not at that time, seeing that i wasn't dressed yet! yes! that biotch saw my undies! hay...needless to say i was speechless since i wans't expecting her, my speech of how our friendship blah blah just flew right away, and we became friends again. although i doubt it that it will ever return back to the way we were, ala barbara streissand, but hey. at least we're ok now. and i love ya chong so no worries. although there are still some things that i desperately wanted to say, the right words just couldn't come out. hay...life is so tragic yet flexible in more ways than one.

had my haircut, which needless to say only 2 people noticed that i had everything done. ganyan talaga pagmaganda! maganda ka na eh! di napapansin na may difference. hahahaha. oh well. i feel lighter so plus side for me. :) had spent 2 straight days with mamitz. surprised her with sharky which she really loves!!! and who i also love the most, as of now. hehehe. :)

saturday night. what else...picked up raine then went to house then to lance. uber funniest moment happened! when we were on our way to lance's but had to drop off jolene and pat to their destis, jolene was in the middle so raine had to step down, when she realized that she was still wearing my rubber house slippers!!! needless to say we were laughing the whole time we went home! BENTA! i witnessed your most embarrasing moment dude!! in less than 30 mins from xavierville to house to pearl drive. jhun, you're the best! saw anton there! yihee for carol!!! went to gb3, MAGIC WORDS!! OPEN BAR! my god had to straight 2 - 1/4's bottles of san mig strong ice! damn!! anyway made sulit the open bar thing although they were only serving beer! what the fuck! they should have just said free beers! hay..anyway had a fun night, table hopping to recto's table to our table. etc. had fun anyway.

THE BEST

the best conversations for me is when you're on your way home after spending time with your friends be it from drinking, coffee or simply hanging out. its the feeling where in you just want to tell everything all at once in such a short amount of time. that's what happend with me lance yesterday. bitched out everything that i wanted to say which i didn't when i had the opportunity. but it was still good because he understood me and i understood him. "that's what friends are for" by dianne ross! hahaha. anyway same thing goes for you my labs! that's she! the best conversations that i have with her isn't while using the phone, but with in her or my car!! love ya!! with kim...hmm..during juicy sessions. siyempre memorable ang game room. love ya chongs!

2003-10-09T16:45:00.000-07:00

Sharky

I was on my way to pick wes up in libis then forgot to read my sms messages. then i saw uncle larry's saying where am i and what was my plan for today. then all of a sudden a land cruiser that seemed familiar just made a cut in front of us! low and behold it was uncle larry to brighten up my day! :) coincidence?! i'd say it was meant to be because it was at that same moment that i was texting him, on my way to libis to pick wes up, when he too was also in libis! amazing!!!!

anyway it was supposed to be a surprise to meet sharky so we had to make up a plan that i was his other niece turning 20 and we were getting leia's sharky since sharky ws supposed to be a surprise birthday gift. supposedly uncle larry would just get me the brochure and surprise me with the key later on. anyway it is certainly a beauty!!! i just love it! and unc larry made us libre in piadina! a family tradition. i remember whenever they buy a new car or anyone in the family for that matter, the whole clan goes to mcdo to celebrate with some sundaes. :) i just love those memories. anyhoo, really perky right now but i can't drive it that much yet seeing that it has no plate no., no tint, no everything. BRAND SPANKIN' NEW!

October 9, 2003 - Sharky's birthday!!

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2003-10-06T06:32:00.000-07:00

everything that i have just said is nothing of what im feeling right now. ever had that moment where in too much thoughts is racking through your brain full of emotions. tears feel like pouring out but all dried up.

i dont think nobody understands on how alone i really feel. times like these, i want to finish up my studies, try to do well and just be the best that i can be. be it whatever.

2003-10-06T06:21:00.000-07:00

SOLEMN

Ever feel like you're in a crossfire?! well that's how i fucking fell like. Everyone shooting the life out of me. The worst thing is, chong you were the only person that I cried to when i was talking to the phone other than my mom. I think you realize how big a deal it is to me. I let you see how vulnerable i actually am. this isn't even one of the thngs that are on my mind right now. Every time i talk to someone i choke up and cry. I dont even know what to do anymore. and to have one of my kabarkada side with the other. what the fuck. life is incredibly shitty right now.everyone shooting at me at every possible angle and there is absolutely no escape but to see friendships fade away. your friendship means the world to me but if it will just destroy you and your fucking relationship then i dont think i want to deal with that right now. after you called me last night i actually decided to leave for australia after my studies for pre-med. fuck all the decision making that i have to do. its just not worth being in the middle. having the option to escape everything. crying your eyes out to your brother. for the first time, i really felt alone. i may act juvenile or over-reacting. be it what you may. this isn't even the case if you're reading it right now. i dont know what do with my life anymore. its like you shattered my facade for what i think it is. if he wants you then just deal with it. if our friendship is one of the issues then i think you should act it out on your own. i think you'll know that i'll always support you, well here's my support. you're my bestfriend and i will always love you but if all i do is just add mishaps and destruction, then i just dont know what to do.

support. that's what everyone needs right now and i'm really thankful for my friends and family. although i haven't necessarily opened up to everyone, it just feels good to have someone to talk to and give you advice on both perspectives. male and female.

my body. i feel the anger, emotion, sadness, tears and everything flaring up my body.

2003-10-03T19:44:00.000-07:00

WAITING FEST

At first i really didn't want to start a blog on this one, but sooner or later i'm sure chesca would have been lurking around these nasty little blogs wondering what exactly were we thinking when she stood us up! De joke lang! :) What exactly happened?! god even i dont seem to remember anymore or at least forgot why i was so angry in the 1st place.

(original plan : either go to my house after school then wait for 8:30 to go to eastwood or go to my house after dinner and go directly libis. lance, cheeks : maraming namamatay sa akala.)

Got home around 5 pm because we were going to oktoberfest in eastwood. piso per beer! who wouldn't give the opportunity up? Cut relstwo because we were really tired and i wanted to lay off the traffic for once. We got really hungry on the road and stopped by mickey d's where lok made us libre on sundae's and me on crispy-licios fries! :) Went home with raine, turned on the computer, played NBA live, ate dinner, wathced some tv, and it was already 9:30. lance and chesca as usual nowhere to be found. knowing lance i would have at least thought that they would be arriving 10:30 max! but no! we were so fucking wrong, it was 1:30 am! needless to say we didn't go to oktoberfest. Chesca and lance had other plans before going to us which of course we had no idea.

basically we were so fucking pissed but it was still fun for some time. Raine and i just danced around the balcony and smoking some ciggies singing some songs. looked like total fools but still had a grand time for about 30 mins out of the 6 hours that we waited for them. thank god we found some ciggies of patrick, because we finished the last 2 sticks that we had before dinner! selfish bitches! hmm.. played uno from 12:00 to 1:30. really fun game if you know how to do it.

obvious feelings, i was really pissed, i really didn't know what to think. of course having a very big amount of conscience, forgot why we were so angry in the first place. i think it was more of not wanting to be angry. especially at chesca, chong i dont know but i just can't seem to have negative feelings about you or lance. of course it was more of bitching out that you were so fucking late, which you had to admit was true, and you had some plans of your own, but after a few hours of more waiting, we were ok na. :) decided to have some fun ourselves playing uno. if i may sound sarcastic...dont worry. we're not angry, but more of dissapointed kasi "usapan usapan" tiba? and to find out that you had no idea of what the plans were. as usual lance is still SUPER ALOOF when it comes to these type of situations. WAKE UP!

but i should think that the reason our nasty sides cooled off was more of hearing what catt had to go through. damn. i'm really sorry but i doubt it if you're going to read this. next time, we should just make our own plans and let lance or chesca follow para no more hassle.

what i have learned is to not to depend so much on people. just do it yourself if you can. going to up now to negotiate whether or not i can apply for church service. BUGGER.

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2003-09-28T04:39:00.000-07:00

Surprises

NEW CARS
Say goodbye to little blue and hello to jolly green monster! yup that's right! fucking sucks that my dory key chain wouldn't match up with car anymore. i'm not getting the city for some pretty obvious reasons, its underpowered and very low. not suitable for driving to la salle. although it is fuel efficient, its not worth the risk to drown in taft ave! hahaha. hmm.. no offense to anyone who owns a city because i really wanted one! anyway my mom decided to get a civic / crv instead. turns out the civic had the same clearance as the city. So take that one out. So it was either the city or the crv now. my mom chose the crv. then my brother who wasn't happy at all with crv suggested the x-trail which my family already loves but was just not in the budget! but when we got there. big surprise!! 1.056 M so its only 60T difference from the CRV! woo hoo! and drives and looks like a beauty too! or should i say masculine...brusko! that's it! buwelo's radius was really small which is hella good compared to the pick up which i'm used to driving when it comes to long cars! but this one's even shorter than the pick up! duh! pick up is longer than a pajero for god's sake! anyway to make a long story short, we decided on the x-trail! big whoop for me! test drove it and everything! hmmm...not at all fuel efficient because its 2.0 L GAS!! fuck. oh well my mom said not to worry because the volvo is also 2.0 L and not as comsuming as the lancer which is only 1.6L. very very strange. YAHOO!!! new and much much better car! 600K from paps and the rest from mom to help! woo hoo. although.

WARNING : X-Trail is not only for Rheia to drive but for the whole family. Although X-trail is for rheia to drive going to La Salle since money from Paps is given to her. yahoo! bleh for wes!

Saturday! Fucking lonely night! didn't go out but did catch up alot with the boob tube! damn. didn't know gilmore girls was really cute. although did realize it before, had forgotten about it for such a long time. Next up, The Birdcage! fantastic movie and what a fabulous name for a GAY DRAG QUEEN BAR!

NON ATTENDANCE

Was supposed to go to Lance's first time gig but didn't go because first no one was going and my liscence was with the police! later. Anyway really felt guilty and to lance i doubt it if you're reading this but really really sorry. hey i told everyone to make sama me but they were all busy. weird the one day that everyone has to do something.

FUCKING CAR TROUBLE

FridAY! fucking mess!! Listening to Paul Van Dyk's new cd. man i was so tense the whole time!!! remind me not to listen to it despite the fact that i love it! Driving through tomas morato and this police just kept on making busina so i was dead scared, turned out that he was making yabang and wanted pass through. fucking arrogant cop! Then going to aurora blvd, tire got sagi going up this very steep and sharp curve. fucking a! first time and i pass here everyday! Next got to old sta. mesa which is where i pass everyday and guess what happens! I got caught for making a left turn when you're not supposed to! Putang ina there was no sign for god's sake! but of course wasn't it my right state of mind since i was so scared. scenario, police was pulling me over but i kept on making singit despite the very heavy traffic on that road. Singit to right then singit to left right left right left you get the picture. one to five meters at a time. police would be at my back then move again. hahaha. laughing his ass of but i was so scared! then after making singit and singit i finally lost track of him. yup. between massive trucks and jeeps so i thought he would have forgotten about me. After 5 mins of waiting he showed up in front of my car! he said i was reckless driving blah blah. then i said manong naman i drive there everyday!what do you mean i can't pass there eh ang dami dami dumaan na diyan. he said showed me your liscence then i thought of putting money in but i said to myself i didn't do anything wrong! wrong move. he told me that i have to claim my liscence blah blah. then i said if i could pay him he said no. good cop! oh well. got to school in one piece although yosing yosi na talaga ako. backet out and waited till my 10 min break so i could tell it to my friends.

FRIENDS

I told catt then i fucking got pissed because she said buti nga sa iyo or something irrelevant like that. way to cheer me up. Everyone naman was ok asking the same questions and of course, trying to repress my anger, just made a joke about it.

MOM FIASCO

I wanted to cry when i told my mom because as usual i once again dissapointed her. she called me gago which i dont even remember. she texted me to say that she was sorry and it was because she got scared and panicked because she wasn't there to protect me when things like this happen. Last 3 weeks was the truck accident, now this. what a way to start on buying a new car! God oh well mom went to cebu and she went to buy me a bag as a symbol of how sorry she was. I didnt even realize how angry i was that she called me gago until friday and saturday night. That was why i really wanted to go out on saturday, was mainly because i didnt want to think about. when i'm alone i think alot...too much that thoughts wander off to different matters all together. very bad habit. i analyze things too much. of course needed a smoke after gilmore girls. then decided not to use the bag altogether and try to give her the silent treatment. she arrived from cebu saturday night but didnt want to greet her welcome back which i always did since i was a kid. i remember making welcome back posters and it had drawings of some sort whenever she got home from pagadian or whatever country she travelled. She said she still kept them up to this date. i almost cried again! I cried too much! I even cried watching TRIP! what the hell is the matter with me! too much hormones. she finally called me and asked why didnt i go greet her. i just made this lame excuse that i didnt know she was there. she hugged me and said that she was sorry. i almost cried again! I asked polite questions like how was the wedding and stuff not showing that much interest because of course i was still hurt.

SUNDAY mornign then went ok but still wasn't as talkative to her as usual. We talk forever when something happens like the wedding and stuff. got angry at her again because everything was doing well, finally openning up then i said i have to find a new way going to la salle. then she blew up and said you weren't even supposed to be there, then i'll get rape raw there?! and i said alot of people pass there! and i should take nagtahan takes about 1:30 to 2 hours! i'm not stupid! then she says something like malamang ikaw puwde irape! may nakikita ka ba ibang puwede marape don?! i answered back i dont look at the drivers naman! she said im pilosopo blah blah. one of the firsts that i talked back against my mom. heavy duty silence but things got better again. thank god. not things are doing very well. bonded because of the car and of our visit to myra. wanted to test drive the crv. was a really good car didnt expect it to be but hey xtrail was better. suspension was really bad for the crv. too bad.

Sorry if this took long i doubt it if anyone will still read it because of its length. Who would have thought. To a weekend that I had nowhere to go and nothing to do but still had one of the most thoughts to write in here. ironic. And using mom's laptop which is really nice to type with. That's why journalists buy a laptop and a desktop people!

2003-09-21T00:45:00.000-07:00

First Time

Yesterday was a first time for both events. IT was my first time to go to J n J cheering competition. At first I was hesitant to go to it because I didn't know anyone,and I felt too old going to a high school event. As arrogant as it may sound, i soon realized that i was wrong. All started when i promised my younger cousin to bring her to it since I knew that some of my friends were going. Expectations? Bring it on live! It was ok, except that miriam weren't successful in completing the routene, but all was good. they were 4th place as we were told. Didn't finish it because we were too damn hungry! My protective side to my younger cousin was shown. First time. I think Lulu was quite shocked, but hey she is a good kid and I dont want anyone to take advantage of it.

2nd was when I was supposedly forced by kc to go to franco's birthday, another place with lots of people who I didn't know! Surpringsly I had fun thanks to chen de chen de! Lizzie was such a fun person who I never thought I would have met in that party! Expectations? Ppl in UA&P really dress well. And I'm not joking! Franco was really making alaga to everyone offering drinks and ciggies to everyone, and of course asking if they were ok. Antoinette Taus came from a badminton game. All i say, tangina! Color coordinated! Artista talaga i guess! Didn't know that she was a chain smoker but hey! ppl can do whatever they want. Lots of couples making out, and wasn't bothered about it. just laughed it off.

Today, had mass and ate at zuchinni's! yummy!!!! really expensive but gotta love it! i just love goose liver! damn! ang liit liit and super mahal but it was one of those meals that you'll never forget! well of course rib eye was the sure way to go! sarap!!! damn. my mouth is watering! and i'm still full up to my throat! damn hormones. monthly period coming up!

Then went to natio quezon avenue, who thought I could lots of hidden treasures in such a commercialized place?? First off found two new books that I love! hopefully...caramelo by sandra cisneros. just love spanish / mexican contemporary literature. next is middlesex by jeffrey eugenides! author of virgin suicides. won the pullitzer prize so what more can you say? all are in paperback which are great! P349 each. dont get me wrong. i just love buying hardbound but hey, i wont cash out P1000+ for something I know i can get cheaper.

Funny

i saw this book, the devil wears prada! made me laugh out loud and thought of karen teh! love ya poochie! prada girl ka kasi eh!

Bargain music

I just bought this 3-cd collection. The great Billy Holiday for only P500! i just love her. my mom doesn't. it's just too jazz for her. dont know where i got this passion for 40's music. depression era. Next, the pure cinema chillout cd. just love it! Although i already have some of the songs in my own compilations, it was still a great arrangement! for only P550, 2 cds total songs 39!

My mom kept on bashing michael buble even though she bought his cd! hahahaha. Its ok but certainly not the best in jazz. I think its just more of a hype for everyone to get into the swinging sound of sinatra back but hey! if you're not a fan of jazz, then this is the place to start i guess. michael buble is just a normal crooner who with his young looks made him partly succesful. Voice? very very average. Arrangement is ok. But some of his songs in his album really made classics sound dull. Bad decision! Never ever make a classic sound normal. A lot of people like him, but that's just it, he's really masa. Am i siding with my mom? No. but of course she does make a point, never really liked him that much because of all the hype, but hey. everyone goes for the hype.

BAGS BAGS BAGS
Mom is cleaning all of her signature and oh so precious bags right now. and does she have a collection. saw in all the magazines that croc hand bags are now it. think of 60's prim and proper. Really love seeing her collection of bags and jewelry. Nice to know that she too indulges in herself other than her kids. And do i mean indulge. damn! wish I was her, and all of her bags are sure classics, some are ranging from 29 years old to present and still looks good! except for that chloe bag of hers thats really has no purpose now. really destroyed through the years. damn! oh well, life is good.

2003-09-14T22:46:00.000-07:00

Weekend Disaster?

What really happened last weekend? hmm..friday had to drive 2 and 1/2 hours straight going home from la salle! really bad traffic. i will never again pass through edsa even if quirino ave. kills me!

next arrived at my house ate lunch then took a bath. went to kafe and was in my first time of going out, a real loner! i never knew that there were so much ppl who went there. of course i had to have a beer and a ciggy to calm my lonesome. then after element no. 5 which is really good, i started openning up to this thing. too much, i suppose because i'm going back despite my lack of friends in that crowd. this friday, sponge cola's ep launch, hopefully it will be a good one. element #5, sponge, sugar free, etc.

saturday went to badminton as usual. was really late. then went to riverbanks. fucking raining! then to dave's to watch the game. mia was there. :) how exciting! bad game for la salle but better rather than 1st round vs ateneo. i'd bet that ateneo would win again this year, they deserve it anyway. went to 12 had a really good but totally expensive dinner. thanks mga chongs! then went to absinth had blue hawaiian, strong ice and..tequila shot. i miss jc! and damn did it miss me! i was so tipsy that the glass actually flew from my hand down to the floor..got broke some spilled to jeelai's which i think she got mad at me for..

really feel guilty chong! never meant to do it. i thought she would catch but she absent mindedly said that you called her. dave got mad at jee for getting mad at me. that's what you get when you're getting close to both the boy and the girl. damn! sorry chongs! anyway still had a fun time because everything was all good and usually was just too damn talkative! the one thing that i like when i drink. :)

2003-09-10T04:36:00.000-07:00

Putang ina

Putang ina! im so fucking pissed right now! i got a 2.0 in experimental psych and i studied my ass of! maybe a bit exagerated on the effort stated, but a fair amount was used up in this fucking worthless piece of crap! After studying for 4 fucking tests i only got a 2.0!

here's the weird part, i got an 89.9 % in the last 4 tests! that would amount to at least a 3.0. fucking shitload...argh!!i just dont know what to do right now..

The only chance that I even thought of becoming a dean's lister has gone to fucking waste! ARGH!!! FUCKING PUTANG INA !!

This is not happening! i knew that she hated me but i didnt know that it was that much! after being warned of exceeding absences. i went to every god damn single class even though i hated going to something that i know will only waste my time. I told everyone despite the fact that she hates me, that maybe it was her god forsaken unborn child that makes her this way! but no! its her god damn fucking attitude!!! FUCKING shitload worth of crap!! i dont know what's going to happen to me! what a day and this was when i started to tell myself not to smoke in the house! fuck!

2003-09-06T23:50:00.000-07:00

BEST TIMES

Yesterday would have to be one of the best times that I have had with my friends. These are the moments when you just don't think of how people may perceive you when you finally revealed your true self. You dont fucking care whether or not people are thinking that you're faking it when in fact the truth has finally been set free just because of a couple of good drinks and good conversations. Although i was not quite drunk but had a lot to drink, i would still say that these people who i have been with was the people who i want to spend my life all together. no more insecurities just plain old laughs and having a great time.

I may be more talkative and yet people seem to be surprised of my sudden change, is it a beginning to show who i really am or rather just a passing moment to let them have a glimpse of who i think i am. a little bit of drama shall we?

I must have screamed my lungs out singing to third eye blind's motorcycle drive by for four times. The song just fitted so well to the feeling that I had at that moment and I really want to thank you guys for making this term break one of those that I will never forget.

A sudden plan for a night that had the fucking best endings.

MOTORCYCLE DRIVEBY by THIRD EYE BLIND

Summer time and the wind is blowing, outside in lower chelsea.
And i don't know what i'm doing in this city,
The sun is always in my eyes,
It crashes through the windows, and i'm sleeping on the couch,
When i came to visit you,
That's when i knew that i could never have you,
I knew that before you did,
Still i'm the one who's stupid
And there's this burning, like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, and i've never been so alive.

Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by,
The cigarette ash flies in your eyes, and you don't mind, you smile,
And say the world doesn't fit with you.
I don't believe you, you're so serene.
Careening through the universe, your axis on a tilt, you're guiltless and free,
I hope you take a piece of me with you,
And there's things i'd like to do that you don't believe in,
I would like to build something, but you'd never see it happen
And there's this burning, like there's always been,

I've never been so alone, and i've, i've never been so alive,

And there's this burning, ah ha, there was this burning. aye yie yie

Where's the soul. i want to know, new york city's evil.
The surface is everything, but i could never do that,
Someone would see through that.
And this is the last time, we'll be friends again.
And i'll get over you ,you'll wonder, who i am.
And there's this burning, just like there's always been,
I've never been so alone, alone, and i've, and i've, i've never been so alive, so alive

I go home to the coast. it starts to rain, i paddle out on the water alone,
Taste the salt and taste the pain. i'm not thinking of you again,
Summer dies and swells rise, the sun goes down in my eyes, see this rolling wave, darkly coming to take me, home,
And i never been so alone, and i've never been so alive.

The wonders of a song is that it gives you a flashback accompanied by a moment that the song just seemed to make that moment more than perfect.

Ever had that feeling when everyone was just having that same feeling of how good you all feel. That was exactly how it felt and I can vouch for everyone on saying " SA SUSUNOD ULIT!"

2003-09-05T21:58:00.000-07:00

Bloody Wednesday

This wednesday has been one of the best and worst wednesdays of my life. First i got up at around 7 am and started computing my grades like hell to find out that i had a chance of becoming a dean's lister. then called jee if she wanted to go out because i was so excited of my findings. Found out at about 1 that i can't be a dl because of my 2.0 grade in chem.

next very irritating moment at the movie although i was the one who wanted to watch s.w.a.t. , not going to elaborate though.

went to drive for the first time since wes went to la union. bloody murder! had to pick up raine, lulu and christine at raine's. went to look for cremlin, then to pierre one but parked at chino's. Had 2 beers and one frangelico. drove raine home then to my place. went to santolan and got hit by a 10 wheeler truck at 2 am! guess how fucking freaked out my mom was. Wasn't that much aware of the situation at hand when it comes to the concept of rape, all i thought was my mom finding out that i wasn't home yet, and the car totalled for the very first time. stupid.

so how scary was the situation at hand, lets say that there were about 5 men from the 10 wheeler truck. 3 men who were bystanders but came up close and one police officer. I was screaming my fucking head off not thinking of how many men were to have took advantage of my vulnerability at present. There are just some things that make life seem to not pass by.

in other words here are some pictures of poor blue...

2003-08-28T03:02:00.000-07:00

SEM BREAK NA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2003-08-26T19:14:00.000-07:00

PIX+O!!!

Guys decided to upload my pics to a new gallery nalang. easier yet plainer design. sorry dod! check it out for p800 pictures and more.

2003-08-14T06:39:00.000-07:00

WIRED
just found out this site recommended by flirtiest girl i know. hahaha joke time chong!

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2003-08-14T06:15:00.000-07:00

Ingeniuty

People seem to be thinking that the person that I was talking about was "turtle". sorry to dissapoint people but it wasn't him. Although when I read about it, it sure sounds a lot like i was talking about him. For me, turtle is just one of those mindless crushes who you think to yourself that he is your crush just to have a little more excitement in your life. As pathetic as it may sound, it still makes me want to go to school more. A harmless crush won't hurt anyone right?

Been driving for the past week going to school and all i could say was damn! la salle has a better parking space than ateneo has in terms of concrete, but shouldn't la salle at least sell a sticker instead then let cars in to park..am i making any sense? Or at least built a better covered parking space. Fuck i dont understand why CSB has to get almost all of the parking spaces when it's right in front of La Salle. Just doesn't make any sense...

Can't wait to watch noon at ngayon! Love the drama. Love everything!

One thing to be proud of being pinoy! Nemo is actually made by pinoys! note the bahay kubo where nemo will sleep in before crossing the "ring of fire!" So adorable. Couldn't believe it though. If only we had that kind of budget to make these kind of films, then we'll be making more than these stupid americans are making.

2003-08-08T23:12:00.000-07:00

NEMO

I am obsessed and just too damn fasicnated with finding nemo! I couldn't believe how long it has been ..laughing so loud and continuously in the cinema...A great film which I think children will like for the colors and the animation, but adults will love it just for the pure genius of the script and its characters. Although it was a typical ending for a cartoon, you just got to love the weirdness that each character has to offer.

Favorites fishes are Dory and the other fish that has her so called sister, "glo'.

Favorite scene : where Dory says to marlin if he's her conscience.

Worst character : starfish

This movie made me want to watch it over and over again, because it reminds me of how much fun i had this summer in the beach. Reminds me of Palawan..I want to go back!

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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2003-08-02T20:13:00.000-07:00

SECRETS

Mixed
I still couldn't believe that I finally finished the whole season1 of meteor garden in less than a week. At first I was really hesitant in watching this show, it was probably because with all that hype, i didn't want to have anything to do with it, especially a chinese soap opera. My biases towards the chinese culture has been evidently been countered. At first, i kept on looking at the negative effects that it had, but then people from all walks of life are finally understanding the chinese culture better than I had, which is not a good thing. Biases are made with past experiences, and with the seemingly unjustified experiences that I have been through regarding my being chinese or not, I really didn't want anything to do with this show, that would again make me more non - chinese.

But I was wrong. This show actually made me want to be more chinese and to be more understanding and flexible rather than seeing the falseness based on my own experiences. I still consider myself chinese even though i only know such few words that i think even an 8 year old child could do better do than me. As a Fil - Chi, it really is hard, because you can never fit in. Although you have other friends who are fil-chi, they seem to be more filipino, or more chinese. I haven't really met a single person who I can say has the same mixed culture that both my parents have adapted me in. With the filipinos, you are still considered chinese, but with the chinese, you are still considered filipino. It seems like it may be such an easy thing for one to comprehend, but it isn't. Not having a sense of belonging will still bring you back to phase one, alone.

Helga
I was shocked to see that you actually admire me, although i take it as a compliment, I think you should see the things inside me other than my facade. I do give you advice which I think are reasonable, but hey, it is easier said than done. I try to at least show that I am strong inside, but inside all my feelings are pent up i dont know what to think of anymore. Dreams that are too weird to be mentioned. Moments where you just want to think why the fuck am I like this. Moments where you just want to scream your head off because you can't say what you want to say. I have all these insecurities that I refuse people to see, I try to set these unreasonable goals that I hope will become true for people to see that I can achieve anything. It might seem that I know a lot of things, but it was passed on to me, not by me. I just wish that you would set your priorities straight and see that there is life out there to be lived. If you do make a judgement, then try to live it out, it is better to accept one's mistake made by you than following everything that has been said.

That one thing you can't have
I just saw the one person that I know I can't have. Knowing that you can't have him makes you even more attracted to him.One of the flaws of the human genome I must say. Although I know it is just a seemingly mindless crush,but it still irritates me that why can't he see me. Am i not good enough? Or is it again my fucking mind reminding me of all those angsty movies and tv shows that have me thinking that this is what liking someone is all about. Media has made us believe what human relationships are supposed to be. This doesn't apply to only people, but to anything. You think that you have finally settled down in life, then this person or thing that you can't have just keeps showing up, you then get all jumbled up over nothing, and lose everything, just for that one thing that you still can't have. Why the fuck are we like this? To risk everything for something that you can only look from a far.

2003-07-27T17:26:00.000-07:00

REBEL, REBEL
Call out the instigator because the revolution is here! - Thunderclap Newton

Just when we thought everything was doing fine for the first time in the Philippines, new mishaps begans to shoot us right in the face.

The one and only thing that these highly respectable guys had was courage. They were willing to die not only for their beliefs but for the betterment of the country. Who in the world would do that? Their passion and determination to finally set this country right is what we need right now. Let me tell you that these are no ordinary men. Most of whom are valedictorians of their graduating class in PMA '95. If anyone of you saw what these men felt in the almost 24 hour coverage of the supposed "coup' ", I would believe that you would have the decency to see more than the suspension of classes.

According to some of my sources, they are stating the truth regarding Angelo Reyes, who is considered one of the most corrupt man in the government right now. The only reason why GMA isn't doing a god damn thing is because it was Reyes who had helped her become president in EDSA 2. We need people like these who need to speak for what is really happening in our country! Although it may seem that not a lot of people are with the ideals of these men, fuck them. Who cares about our economy, when that is not the real problem! Corruption has been with us every since the beginning and not a single person chose to support on what they are trying to state, which the most obvious problem here in the Philippines. The guns and bombs wasn't the issue here. It was the morality of our people.

Imagine that you were out in jungle warfare supposedly fighting for your country, then finding out that your enemies are also being supported by your supposed leaders through artillery, ammo and money! how the fuck should one feel after witnessing such an outrage. People die for these stupid fucks just so they could get more money then what they deserve. for what?! for $12,000 bottles of champagne?! for P7 million cars?! If you still can't see the point that I'm trying to make, think what you want, just see that these men are not the enemy but simply trying to show from what is right and what is wrong. These men had never done anything to anyone, they even gave up because as said by the opposing negotiators, the people are really having a hard time with the coup, which is why these men surrendered. They sacrificed everything they had for us, and yet they gave up everything they believed in for us. Still can't get the picture?

2003-07-27T16:50:00.000-07:00

Finally got this blog working. So what do you guys think of the new design? the LOUNGE

2003-07-21T17:27:00.000-07:00

WALANG PASOK!

Times like these you just wish you were part of that Nescafe Commercial.

2003-07-21T00:15:00.000-07:00

DOWN WITH LOVE

Down with love, now that's something each and every girl should think of once in a while, although i do think that the idea of the movie was great, it was the clothes and the style of the 60's which had got us going in our seats. Rene Zelwegger was good as Barbara Novack while Ewan McGreggor was simply just plain handsome with his charming good looks and his oh so wonderful voice. Call it an omage, i would probably say it was an exaggeration of the 60's. after watching a lot of the films of this era, i would think that they had tad overdone themselves, and not brining the total aspect of what the 60's really was. Second, is that just me or was there a scene that was just a bit like austin powers?!

The one good thing that I had liked in the movie was the set designs of both the character's pads, second, i certainly liked the soundtrack and the musical scene with ewan and rene at the end,with both the actors having done successful transitions to movie musicals for the past 2 years who wouldn't have thought of a better ending? and lastly the twist that it has at the end actually made up of what the movie was lacking at the beginning. We all know who catcher block was at the end, but who was Barbada Novack? although they did not need to present it through the whole 30 mins. of the film, but all in all it was an ok film which is great with watching with your chikas, and amigas! Why not make a 60's bar after this movie!? anyone?

SHE! last teen year mo na!! make use of it ok!? and guess what, Robin of UP Maroons actually looks like POGI! hahaha Happy Birthday Lovebug!

2003-07-13T03:49:00.000-07:00

EVERYTHING

who would've fucking believe it!! LA SALLE Actually won and Ateneo lost. although these two teams may have had the longest rivarly known to Manila, it was still good to see these two teams show their skills fought with UE and UST. Both were very good match ups whose results were shocking as well. La salle was one of the least expected teams to win in this year's uaap, but hey it was only one game. with almost the whole starting line up changed, and was replaced full of rookies, it was their aggresiveness that we hope to see through out the season.

it's really been a while since i have started to write again in this journal of mine. still thinking of changing the design...not sure of what though.

and again, charlie's angels. I have been obsessed with this movie for a very short time after watching the sequel. what surprised me was that most of the guys weren't into the movie as much as the girls were. It was said that the stunts were just too exaggerated for a girl to do. As a girl, i believe that this was an insult to us girls, first of all, if it was the matrix, guys would just jump out of their seats with the stunts that these people would be doing, yet the girls would still be amazed of what these people can do. Now does anyone see the difference if an actor or an actress were doing the stunts? The #1 goal of any blockbuster movie is mainly to entertain, and not to preach. 2nd, these are actors and are merely doing their job. Therefore if these people are to be trained for months to be doing what they're doing, shouldn't we just appreciate that these people can do what professionals can. Full Throttle was better than what I had expected, and of course with a sort of musical / kinky fights / cute designer clothes and make - up, what more could a girl ask for?

I have a new baby! and no, i wasn't pregnant for a month! I just got my p800 and i am obsessed with playing with it! "it's everything!"

2003-06-13T07:30:00.000-07:00

PACHA / KC's 19th

Finally, more 19 year old people of whom they could relate me to in our barkada! It does feel good to be around people who you know is almost as old as you. Although there is nothing bad with people who are younger, its still nice to know that you're not the only one in the span of their last teen year.

First PACHA, ibiza, was good but was quite different from the usual scene. First it was a latin club in Ibiza which I'm sure not a lot of people knew, therefore different type of genre. Not so much of what the club scene in manila is used to. Second, Juan Diaz was not as good as we thought he was. Thank god he played Darkbeat's Addicted to drums for a good solid 15 minutes. Now that was something to remember the night to. Definitely one of the best moments. The best things in life are definitely free. First of all I only spent 100 bucks that night. 2nd, was that I was the 100th complimentary "SMART" subscriber to get a free ticket! thank god!

The only sad thing was that I had to wait for my friends cause I thought they were going to follow through, although things do change in an instant when you're drunk before getting to the party. Believe me. It happened twice now.

Everything was good but people were not just used to dancing/jumping to happy house. I think that happy house is better suited for bars. Good thing was that Karen and Kim are now actually "REALLY" dancing! And not giving a damn fuck about it too! Amen! The only good thing in going to places like that is just being yourself and listening and fucking enjoy the music the way it was supposed to be. Whenever I dance I try to close my eyes as often as possible to feel the music and realize how it makes me feel. Then all of a sudden your body just starts to move as it was meant to and not give a flying fuck what other people think. You'll know what I'm talking about when you've already done it, if you're still conscious of how people see you when closing your eyes while listening to good music, then you're so fucking insecure, and can't seem to follow that nobody cares how you dance in places like that. People should learn to relax in places like these. Imitating is good for a few laughs but not for the whole night.

Kacy, first - timer, jee, she and kim all stayed home. Went home by 3:33 got to ayala by 4 and went to bed by 5:00 to 5:30. I woke up at 11 then went to kacy's house for her birthday dinner which is today. Dinner was good but before that was hillarious. Watched Meteor Garden marathon straight with own personal interpretator. Just realized how weird taiwanese culture really is. Although male dominance and violence towards females was seen through out the whole movie. What struck me was the difference of how lifestyle is perceived through out the whole scenario. Superiority is as extreme in both male and female sequences.

2003-05-29T17:59:00.000-07:00

DRAMA QUEEN?

People seem to think that I overdid myself with my emotions last blog. Didn't realize that people were still reading this. But hey, that's good right? Anyway I'm here in the periodicals section with my friends since there is nothing to do right now. Saw my ex today, and he was so...HOT! God damn! If only things were different before...

Why is it that people always seems to remember the good things that happened when you were together ? You will never remember the things that made you broke up in the 1st place? Or the one thing you know that wouldn't make your relationship work. Then all of a sudden you remember all those good and sweet things that you used to do together, making you forget, why you're not with him right now. Is it human nature?

By the way just saw tanging ina. funny!
Finally! The sun is back up. haha sounds something life with mikey. But hey, love the sun. love the beach.

2003-05-27T23:40:00.000-07:00

DENSE

After waking up at 5:30 in the morning and realizing that I really didn't feel like going to school in such a cozy weather to the upper part of society, I made some thinking that I guess was a result of watching my favorite movies such as Reality Bites and My Best Friend's Wedding. Common factor in these movies? Friends to lovers having those disputed angst that we all know you love.

Am I just that desperate to have someone in my life right now or is it just a probable cause of cold weather with no one to hang around with. You decide.

Dense is the word. What is it when you find out that people are somewhat interested in you or in lamen's terms, had a crush on you. Is it a good thing or a bad thing. What is it when you find out at the last minute where in you know that person has just moved on. I am not talking on my behalf but for everyone who I know has passed this dreadful event in their lives. A friend tells you that these guys or girls had a crush on you, the operative word is HAD, people. You then at first think, wow..at least I know I'm likeable hence leading to a probable boyfriend or girlfriend. But then more thoughts gone by and you say what the fuck!? Why hadn't I seen this or at least tried to see the probability of a not so distant relationship. My biggest issue would be having the fear of getting hurt. If sample A or B would try to get near, I being the common denominator between two, would simply avoid any contact at all cause. What is it with me? A simple joke about it and I just clam myself up for not letting the other person thinking that he has a chance. Or is it that I just haven't found the right person yet. Listening to depressing songs isn't helping my current state at all..

Let's face it, people always had their chances whether or not you are the perpetrator in the relationship but the thing is, why can't people just be more frank with one another, therefore having less of a problem on knowing where your chances are with he or she. Am i right? or Am i not?

This is what Reality Bites does to you. God..I fucking love that movie. I am thinking that Ethan Hawke as Troy Drer is what attracted me at first to the guy that I am looking for. The slacker / poetic type who thinks he knows everything and lets you believe that he is indeed knowledgeable, yet is even more vulnerable at the same time. But hey that was the past. Once you grow older, you realize that the personality that media wants you to believe you are to wish for is not what you get in the end. Or maybe at least once, leading to my first real crush whom I am to say had loved before but was just too young. Growing older means being more practical in where looks and specific types of guys is not what you see but compatibility. Or in some cases, being at the right moment at the right time.

2003-05-25T07:15:00.000-07:00

NEW PICTURES

New pictures of Boracay, Laiya Batangas and some pictures taken with my friends' cellphones.

If you want to know how my trip was to Pagadian, the family encounter, Puerto Princesa and Dos Palmas...it was just too exhilirating and incredible to say it in one blog. Lets just say I wasn't used to Manila at all after reaching here with all those fucking cars and pollution, but hey...whats the beach without getting a dark complexion?

Anyways enjoy the pictures!

2003-04-29T23:58:00.000-07:00

BEACH is porcelain

Well. this must have been one of my most jam packed summers ever. First off there was an overnight trip to Tagaytay with my blockmates lulu, chard, and raine. Along with some of lulu's cousins and friends. The trip was supposed to be on 10 in the morning and was moved to 7 in the evening but was delayed up to 9 - 10 pm leaving manila. Damn. Think of the fucking time going to waste, but no harm, a trip out of town will always be a trip out of town. To make that story short, met up with some of lulu's friends at the gas station, went to drive in tagaytay for about a hour and half. went to look for a whole lot of drinks all over. Finally settled down. To tell you the truth i was really uneasy. I just realized how different my background is with my friend and her cousins. How they talk, how they do things, it was quite different. But hell, you learn a few things here and there. The trip was ok, but the best part would probably be have been the swimming despite the fucking brit complaining that we were too noisy. I got to open up and be myself to them, or was it just the gin pom talking. But hey all fun. The next day just heard that I had a free ride to go to Boracay all expenses paid except for pocket money the very next day. Still had a hangover but hey had to pack when I got home by about 9 in the evening.

By 5 am I had to meet my friend kacy and her other friends who i am not at all close to for the trip to boracay. At first bit uneasy again. I seem to have a problem openning up immediately to people I hardly know. When I first arrived to Boracay I was like this was it, paradise. But one foot on the ground after a very long trip just lost me the moment. We got stranded in the run way no thanks to asia spirit. The flaps were broken, then another announcement saying that the brakes were now broken. We were so fucking terrified on how bad really is asia spirit. but hey. it was all good. An hour has passed and we were now boarding on another plane.

By the time we got there we ate at true food for some indian cuisine which was pretty good but quite expensive. Asked where were the places to go. At night, it was Ibiza which globe was sponsoring. Still nothing compared to smart parties but hey it was pretty cool. Nice sounds. First songs that comes to mind was Chicane's love on the run, moony and milky, and fucking ian pooley! My friend kacy got so drunk that we have to let her sleep in pierre one with the bean bags. Stole one of the bean bags and brought it to the far end of the beach. But before we went to ibiza had to grab our welcome drinks first to save on money to have a hit and just enjoy the night.After ibiza and a short nap on the beach despite the party went to cocomangas and danced a little while my other friend puked in the floor, and slept in this bahay kubo with tons of pillows.

1st problem that we encountered was that I was supposed to pay 1000 a night for extra person since my friend who supposedly won the ticket went but wasn't allowed to a small plane so there were 2 of us who were extra. big problem was that i only brought 3000. But hey I thought of a plan to supposedly not stay there and tell the resort that I was staying with my brother who I also met at ibiza. Who was fucking drunk by the way with v's and beer. Not something I plan to do. By the end of the trip still had 1500 with me and had done almost everything there is to do on boracay. that's fucking good.

woke up at 10 in the morning since we all had hang overs, fixed our stuff that we hadn't done the day before. met up with manny had lunch at puka beach took a lot of pictures, snorkled up to the fucking end of the coral reefs with the caves and all, lay on the raft waiting for the rest. snorkled with the fishes and had a hard time picturing underwater. haha. but it was still fun. when we came back it was fucking 7 pm, took a bath then went out for dinner and drank till 7 to 8 in the morning and watch the sun come up and just bonded with the beach and the stars with again the famous bean bags. hey jude for cocktails then to pierre one for sisig and beers.

third day woke up at 1030am which was supposed to be fucking 9. By the end we went talipapa bought some stuff then headed to jony's for bottomless banana peanut shakes / banana shakes and just lie on the beach to go get a tan. Used beer as a tanning device which works like heaven. Then swam up to the farthest to reach the fucking flyfish which was hard as hell to climb up to. And was near the fucking barrier of the sea where you were supposed to swim. Build a giant sand boobs and had a lot of pictures faking to kiss it. Drank about 4 1/2 of banana shakes. Wore my bikini with sarong. Had lunch at this really good tapsilog place (charterkey). Got back at 8 in the evening then went to eat at 9:30 drinks at hey jude until there was no tomorrow. Made friends with the bartender and the dj so I had any drink I could get. Made friends with mae the waitress too who gave me a free a kamikaze shaker. Dj gave us unlimited tequila shots and 2 more kamikaze shakers. mind you this wasn't includding the ones we already drank previous to the free drinks. Met up with kacy's older brother's barkada who I knew some of them as well. One includding UNCLE Cesar and his girlfriend kym. Who i tell you is now my favorite uncle! Was so drunk that I slept at their place since the whole fucking room was spinning too fast. And i thought it was impossible.

Went back to the resort fixed our stuff had this fucking worst hang over, ate mango calamares raw, then went to hey jude for some pizzas. We almost got left by the bangka but all was well. Had to wait for an hour for the plane then headed home. As usual a few embarrasing pictures but it was all good. Funniest thing that happened was kacy falling face flat in front of hey jude! screaming as usual.

The next day after arriving got to see xmen 2 for free at the premiere. Fucking good times with older brother and his friends. Hanged out at starbucks with kuya and his girlfriend and talked from 10:30 to 2:30 in the morning. Missed out on Bubba's party which he called while I was watching the bloody movie.Fucking good one at that. Wasn't expecting it that way at all. And now I'm enjoying my 1st bummed out day here typing everything that has happened so far. Friday I'm leaving for LAIA in batangas, which was supposed to be bloody puerto galera if it wasn't for those fucking 400 mainland chinese who went straight to PG by yachts. SARS PRECAUTION people! that's it! Going to meet up with friends tonight.

2003-04-21T22:47:00.000-07:00

OSCAR Marathon

I just saw The pianist, Gangs of new York, Cinema Paradiso, etc.. It was those fulfilling movies where in subtitles are very very important. despite their use of the english language, you still couldn't understand a thing of what they were saying. Although how to lose a guy in 10 days is a typical romantic comedy, they sure know how to make one. With kate hudson's charm and sex and the city stylish wit, its really a great movie to watch with your friends. A nice movie to tone down the serious mood swings that i have been getting after watching too many serious movies during a summer break.

Am now watching good advice, charlie sheen is a terrible actor for this kind of genre but angie harmon is just gorgeous. Although this is not at all a crtically acclaimed movie, it still is nice. Can't wait to go to the fucking beach!! Puerto Galera here we come! although it is labor day weekend, still can't wait to go to see the white sand, clear waters, everything! Tagaytay, drinks galore!! Can't wait!

A must - see is Cinema Paradiso! A classic will always be a classic. An Itallian movie that has touched me in so many ways not only of the acting, but because of the score by my all time favorite, Ennio Morricone. The pianist was ok but i expected a whole lot more. Thank god it wasn't as dark as schindler's list. Roman Polanski was the one who was first to direct schindler's list but turned it down. Adrien Brody was good but there even wasn't any script to work on! No dialogue at all, but hey if the academy thinks so, what the bloody hell can we do. Gangs of new york was better than what i have expected due to some friend's criticisms. It was a good movie for what it was worth, a different kind of epic. I think Martin Scorsesse deserved that award for best director rather than Roman Polanski, not because of mainstream fame, but how different he made of an expected epic.

2003-04-12T06:39:00.000-07:00

ACHING BODY!

Dave! Super thanks for being our pitcher! Now we know you're good talaga for jee kasi even though we know look stupid, game ka pa rin! hahaha. Kick ball...damn! been a really long time since i played that. It was fun, but it would have been better if we were more.

Badminton as usual with a spontaneous overnight. Sex Drive is not a really good movie to watch! Too kinky for me. It was so funny since my barkada was so eager to watch a film like sex drive. I would have expected that from my group of friends from the block. hahaha. As usual, say no to piracy since the damn fucking disc1 won't even work! Oh well, since knowing that the movie was full of crap, I got to know the climax of the story through the end. or maybe lack thereof.

As usual. still phone frenzy. Been a little cautious of what to buy, seeing that it is my money, but hey. I'll just wait and see what I'll be feeling when I see the p800 arrive at my doorstep, if I'm thinking of keeping it then fabulous. If not, I'll just wait for the sx1, just hope that it'll be cheaper, if not I'm dead! I'm thinking yes, seeing that it doesn't have touch screen and it not being a pda / phone rather a phone with pda capabilities.

Badminton again on a Wednesday morning! This better keep me in shape! But somehow I feel like I'm getting even bigger. I really dont understand why.

Rheia

2003-04-10T02:35:00.000-07:00

NEW SONGS / NEW PICTURES

just added some new songs. Just realized that people do actually read my blog, or is it just you, she? hahaha. anyway hmm..people seem to actually take my song list seriously, so i added a lot of latin house/house music for all of you to celebrate the summer of! Gotta have good party sounds for everyone right? Say Hello to Jose and his
buddy sombrero!! Partner in crime with these songs.

By the way new pictures found at my gallery of the block and barkada.

2003-04-10T02:14:00.000-07:00

THE GURU = BOYS OF SUMMER

I just watched The Guru and it was one of those movies that I didn't realized I'd like so much. I'm really into foreign films as of the moment. Bought a lot of dvds from Riverbanks. Piracy will always be a friend of mine. My brother really wants to get those local dvd players. Plays mp3 cds, cd-r/cd-rw/vcd/dvd/piracy friendly. What a way to spend 5,000 pesos. It's not always the brand people!

Hmm..Heather Graham was just so adorable through out the whole movie. Really makes you wonder why she always gets those porn star - related roles. But hell, she sure is good in portraying one. Billy Joel's Just the way you are will never be the same. Hahaha.

I'm listening to DJ Sammy's Boys of Summer right now. Really grows into you. Jeelai you gotta sing this with me! super galing. Although it is bubble gum house as dave puts it, it still is really good. Really into House / Funk/ Latin House / whatever right now. Actually I just like almost anything.

Fucking hell, It's finally summer! thank god! just hope I pass, but hey, what's summer! I just need to have fun and just celebrate. Celebrate whether it may be bumming around the house, or somebody else' s house, or even a bar. whatever. Fucking good old times.

2003-04-07T20:44:00.000-07:00

COURSE CARD SCHEDULE

Subject Section Time Room Faculty
STAT102 A51 0930-1050 J211 DE MESA, IMELDA
RELSONE A51 0930-1100 M313 DONOZO, ARNOLD
COMPLAB A52 1000-1100 J107 CANTILLER, PATRICIO ELVIN
INPHYS1 A51 1000-1120 J113 MISTADES, VOLTAIRE
COMPANA A51 1100-1220 J109 FLORES, MARY JANE
FILIPI3 A51 1300-1420 MM22 RAMIL, KATE ALYZON
PHYLAB1 A52 1300-1430 J111 DIWA, GILBERT
NSTP-R1 A51 NONE
PEDANCE A52 NONE

2003-04-05T01:02:00.000-08:00

CELLPHONE CRAZE

Okay I am dying for a new cellphone right now! i dont know but my mom wont allow me to get the smart amazing phone. Although there were a lot of mixed reviews on that one. funny thing it is the perfect phone for me , but hey if i can't have it..then i guess i can't. all i want is a phone that plays mp3s, videos, and can surf the internet..the only thing is the one thing that i know has the same capabilites is the p800 which is too fucking expensive! damn. and the memory stick duo is a drag too.

So here is my Cellphone wishlist, if i'm lucky, you'll see me with this phone next year.
Siemens Sx1
features are : video phone, video messaging, video player, mp3 player, MMS, SMS, Blue tooth, email, GRPS, Wap 2.0, polyphonic, Built in digital camera and camcorded for video.

Siemens U10
features are : mp3, video camera, video phone, blue tooth, MMS, SMS, EMS, etc.. almost the same

Motorola A835
features are : one of the thinnest 3g phones (video conferencing), 64k color display, GRPS, mp3 player, video player, 256 mb internal memory, blue tooth, etc.

hay...if only i have the money. my mom doesn't want me to buy the smart amazing phone, which i think i have been fucking promoting to almost everyone. #1 reason is because it is smart, and i already have a line in globe, very hassle to transfer, and nobody would want to text me anymore! #2 is that my mom still owes smart way way back, and she doesn't want to have another problem with them, she paid them but they didn't get it. #3 its a generic phone, so it'll be hard to sell. #4 mixed reviews, good and bad world wide.

But the good news on this phone is that it can play mp3s, videos (.wmv, divx, mpeg, etc.. up to 1 gig), SD/MMC card so you can buy any type of memory card rather than sony's memory stick duo which is only up to 60mb and only uses sony products., can view the internet using ie explorer, meaning can view as you see in your computer, (just like p800), and etc..too many mention. like i said, perfect phone, but still can't have it, despite that it is one of the cheapest that i have seen. even cheaper than a fucking 7650. If you do want to research on this one, its called the orange SPVx or orange SPV in Europe. now available at Smart.

And if you are interested in my top 3 phones list above, it will be availabe sometime june to august of 2003. Third quarter.

Yes, Once I'm interested in buying something I really like, I do some research like hell. Better to be sure where my fucking money goes, right?

2003-03-28T08:34:00.000-08:00

decided to change the layout again. was so sick and tired of the colors..i don't know why. anyway what do you guys think? keep or bring back the old one?

2003-03-28T04:23:00.000-08:00

SENSIBLE / SENSITIVE

If one would say that he is shocked of how a person sees you within a different perspective of what you see yourself, would you be happy or sad? Would you be sensitive or sensible enough to change your attitude towards things. If someone says you look fat, when you think you look good. If someone says you're a tease or a flirt, when you're just being friendly. It may be of physical / emotional / intellectual aspects, but yet here we are thinking of how to please others first instead of being grateful to yourself.
When someone has a different outlook on what we do in life or how we think, yet they disagree, will we change ourselves for what we have done?

My friend told me of a conversation they had with a few of our blockmates...mixed feelings were brought up. Is it better to be in a big group yet not everyone is happy or be in small group where you are comfortable with yourselves? I think that one should not force the topic of being together, because we are friends. yet not the kind of friends whom you have to tell everything to. Face it, do we even tell everything to the people we see everyday? I'm positive that there will always be a part of you where in you dont tell anyone but yourself. Is there a need to tell everyone what we are doing, where we are going everytime? Yet we see the sentiment in their feelings, I am just confused of whether or not to conform of what people are letting us do, to satisfy their wants in life. One would say that we are leaving them when we are having lunch, but who's leaving who when shifting to a new course, or leaving a party of our "group of friends" to go to another party? I AM NOT SAYING that I am right on my justifications, but there will always be a time where in the world is not perfect, and so are we. People tend to make mistakes, but we are to change all of that. I just dont think that we are to adapt to a new beginning because of what other people want. This is a just world, is it not? Being in a bigger group does not mean that we are happier with one another and there is no need of other friends. It is simply of being more comfortable with who we are and who are with. In my experiences with the past and the present, a bigger group doesn't necessarily mean more fun for everyone. But hey, it still doesn't mean that we can't all have fun once in a while right? People have their own separate lives...must we bring everyone into our problems?

What if there is no heaven, there is no soul? A very refreshing yet disturbing lecture was given to us yesterday, on whether or not there are the things that we tend to believe in. People seem to spoonfed us "valuable" information on how life should be lead, and all that crap, but does one really have proof of what is the best way to live life? Who is to judge on which things cannot be done. What happens in afterlife? does one really know? Moses never said that when one dies and lived a good life, he/she will go to heaven. The kingdom of God is merely a way of living life. Does one really have a soul? For us to be able to reach the kingdom of god, it is not to repent, but to change our lifestyle. To change of the things that we have done, an example would be intellectually masturbating. If we hate having sex, then change it! If we hate being charitable and senstive to the poor, change it! That is what the real message of God was when the bible was written in Greek, the original language of the bible, but yet are we sure since Jesus spoke in Aramaic...translations are a fucking shitload of crap for us to comprehend what we can't understand due to differences not only in language but in culture as well.

2003-03-25T05:36:00.000-08:00

OSCAR FRENZY

Diamond Jubilee year for the oscars last night, but there wasn't anything to celebrate at all...or more of a somber celebration due to war on iraq. There were a lot of mixed reactions on to what people were feeling or which side one would take. I heard on the news that it was a surprise to see only a few of these thespians were actually wearing picasso's dove of peace. I was shocked to say that more people were actually anti-AIDS than anti-war. If you remember, it was when all of the participants during the Academy Awards wore little red ribbons attached to their clothing.

On to the results,It was a head to head race on which movie would win. I was quite shocked and relieved that the academy chose not to go to the mainstream choice as it did the previous years. Am really curious about the pianist! Adrien Brody's speech was just fantastic..it was very emotional and heartfelt that you could see his tears. I just hope that this doesn't get into his head. For a relatively new comer (esp. to the international market) I think this the best publicity one could get. Everyone was downsizing their "award" gowns which was very sad because it is a very very important factor..especially the oscars..but hey! i loved julia robert's gown. as usual wearing black with a gold chain and pendant. Loved Kate Hudson! And the Versace gown! Damn! Nicole was also in a black Jean Paul Gauttier gown..looked really good..especially the straps but it kept falling off her shoulders...but hey! she won so.. Wish I was an actress! If only I could get to keep them...Okay..sounding like InStyle right now. but it was fantabulous! haha. okay..Joan Rivers...not good!

Michael Moore..damn..he must have some fucking guns hidden somewhere cause this man is sure in a hell lot of trouble..must have some pretty good friends in high places to get past this one. Pretty funny because everyone gave him a bloody standing ovation when he received this award. But hey..it is a pretty damn good film, as I was told, so I'm going to download it over the weekend. Already got his acceptance speech..already available in kazaa. If you still don't know who he was before the Oscars, he was the winner of this year's Canne's Film Festival. It was fucking wrong of him to bash the president in a Hollywood event! Damn people! you don't say anything bad in an obvious way about the president of your nation in your own country. It was pretty weird to see everyone's reaction to his speech. The camera was panning around the audience and some were rooting for him and some were just stoned silent..because of his courage? or probably of his stupidity ..a formal event..it was like he was destroying everyone's moment of peace...but of course..this is America. The land of freedom. In my opinion he should've just told his opinions during the press release...another publicity stunt, maybe? He will now be forever known all over the world..so we'll see where this is headed.

CHICAGO won the most awards! Thank God/Allah! I was really rooting for this one, being only one of the three movies that I have watched out of that were nominated, but hey! it is a pretty darn terrific fucking good movie. Gangs of new york won nothing! Can you believe it? And here people were expecting this to be Martin Scorsesse's comeback..it wasn't one of his greats..but hey. what gives..Daniel Day Lewis and Renee Zellwegger were I bet, as shocked as I was to NOT hear their names. You should've seen their faces. I read that Renee Zellwegger was actually crying after she heard Nicole won...you know, what people should do? They should show the faces of the non-winners during the acceptance speech..that would be funny.Funnier?? Catherine Zeta Jones giving birth there on the spot! She was as big as Queen Latifah! Two healthy mamas! But she is one my favorite actresses so..no judgement given. Really nice to see some healthy looking actresses....everyone looked so ...big...even those who weren't pregnant! Kathy Bates was very charming with her sex/humor related presence..and U2 was just great! Gael Garcia..god..hot! Almost everyone was in an Armani suit. Meryll Streep looks gorgeous as always. Diane Lane in a feathered gown..looked really cute. I guess she pulls off feathers better than say. Bjork. Remember the swan outfit? NOT GOOD! Fucking rip off? Eminem for lose yourself! Jesus! What was the academy thinking?? Although it was a pretty good song...wasn't a good movie to remember it by..so what makes this song entirely acceptable for it to win? Original songs are to let us be reminded of the magic that movie brought to you while listening to the score/songs. And the one who accepted the award on his behalf...everyone was like..who the fuck are you? it was so funny. Again it was a good show because Kirk Douglas and Michael Douglas was superb in giving the award of Best picture. Funny yet Hollywood like. When they announced Chicago, it was like you just won the lotto! Feels better for everyone since it is the last award of a 9 hour and a half show. Better make it a grand finale, don't you think? Whats so nice about ending it with this much enthusiasm makes you realize how imporant an award like this really is.

What makes the oscars better than let's say..Metro Manila Film Fest? WALANG FUCKING BAYARAN! So people if you were to choose which movies are good or not, please make the right decision and not based it on mainstream cinematic range. It's already bad enough that the quality of movies are deteriorating as it is. Only a few times do we get to see really good Movie Magic. Not just locally but especially in Hollywood. Everyone seems to gobble up these fucking trash movies that gets away with good publicity and special effects. What I would do to be a cinematographer...Oh and Conrad L. Hall is a genius for road to perdition. If only he were alive..

BEST DRESSER"s" / MOMENTS...

2003-03-22T05:13:00.000-08:00

CIGGIE REHAB

God..its been a fucking while since I had my last ciggie...for all you people out there..its been nearly a week! It feels fucking good to smoke...loss of brain cells..who cares?? it fucking regenerates right? I guess thats one important thing that we all have learned from anatomy. Lesson learned never to smoke before or while studying for a big test..its great that I haven't smoked for a while even though my friends were..but ciggie rehab is a fucking drag..I was craving it the whole time at home, but tah dah! success! Only on the weekends! Except for some very strenous and very special occassions.

Whats good is the "tama" that we get when we haven't smoked for a long time..It's like saying hello to an old friend...an old friend that we have truly missed. If you're wondering why the hell am i fucking writing about ciggies, its because i just had one. and It feels one hell of a bitchin' good time!

Its been a long time since I had such a "grand" time with myself! Me and friends..as in the TV show. Laughter is truly the best medicine!

Chongs..I miss the times that we have in our game roon and in the attic..even though you guys fucking puked, but hey..all is good! I might not be going to bora, but hell! being with friends here is nice. Good sounds, good conversation and some fucking laugh trips. That's the thing with some bars now..not so good music...if only we can play what we want! so make that fucking drinking appointment and i'll provide with the sounds!

Jee...you better tell me how it went! I think that's what college is about..new friends, new experiences, and some fucking good times. I need to get out! But hey...what can i do.

2003-03-21T18:31:00.000-08:00

COUPLES NIGHT!

It really is a weird friday! first of all, I fell down sa william! And then twisited my ankle! fucking shit..been a while since i can't even remember when was the last time that i fell down...and i'm a certified klutz..so nothing new.

What else...JEELAI AND DAVE are officially couple! Although the news isn't at all surprising to ANYONE! hehe Oh and my brother and his friend, Yans, are now a couple too. Its pretty weird for him since I think its a first to have a part of your barkada as a girlfriend.

Then here I am thinking, what the fuck! When will it be my fucking turn! Been too long...Although here I am convincing myself that single life is definitely more fun. I guess everything has its pros and cons.

2003-03-18T04:26:00.000-08:00

CHICAGO

"You can like the life you're livin', you can live the life you like. You can even marry Harry. Or Mess around with Ike

And It's good. Isn't It Grand. Isn't it Great? Isn't it Swell? Isn't It Fun? Isn't it..Nowadays!."

2003-03-18T01:56:00.000-08:00

WHAT WOMEN WANT / Nemesis

Hay..what I would do to have a guy like Mel Gibson was in What Women Want. Though it may be cheesy, it was really sweet! And all of their kisses were the "take my breath away" kind of kiss...argh! Mel Gibson is such a good kisser...makes my heart flutter! if that even actually happens. Fuck...i need a boy! Been too fucking long. It's always feels good to watch a romantic feel good movie. The fun perks of being a girl. Really looking forward to watching "How to lose a guy in 10 days."

Still can't stop singing to the Chicago soundtrack. As usual. Feeling broadway star! I just love this movie! Can't get enough of it! Would love to watch the real thing though.

I was able to catch Star Trek : Nemesis...let's just put it this way.. I am not in any such way a Trekkie. Really hated the whole time I was in the theater. Couldn't wait to leave..and movies are my life! I dont know why...but it just plain sucked. The plot line was too obvious I already guessed what was about to happen in the first 30 minutes of the film. I think that's what makes me such a critic for a film. I hate films where in you alraedy know what is about to happen, and you are not surprised in any sort of way through other outlets of the film such as the score, cinematography, let alone the effects, being this a science fiction movie. I dont know..the worst thing was bad acting, bad script and terrible timing! too predictable..nothing new, it was like watching one of those old films of Star Trek. I hate those movies where in they put these "meaningful" lines..as in cermonal...where in they try to teach about family, blah blah..this is NOT religion class people! God...people should think first before making a movie...

2003-03-16T05:18:00.000-08:00

new pictures
again..i love chicago!! just watched it again on dvd. and kept on listening to the soundtrack...if only i had the guts to sing on stage...

btw, new pictures of the barkada on gallery! this is the one of kim's birthday! as usual conggo..haha. til next time.

had a really great martini yesterday! coco lychee martini. yummy!

2003-03-14T17:34:00.000-08:00

FROSHIE SYNDROME / fucking best movie

Ok..as usual wednesday was a movie..watched Chicago! Oh my god! It is one of the greatest movie that I have ever seen! really good cinematography..wonderful acting..everything you could think of was there to make a broadway move to the big screen.. didn't even realize how talented catherine, rene, richard and queen latifah were...it was just so "GRAND". haha. it felt like i was watching the broadway in more views than one could imagine all at one time. What was so good about this was that this revival was it was like you were watching the broadway but it has more to offer than any play could. No words can describe...really good. Hope this one wins. This is one of the films that have surpassed my already big expectations.

Everytime I watch movies like these..I feel like i'm from this era...My mom told me that i'm an old soul. so hopefully I was part of it. When jazz was in its becoming. Tap dancing, swinging to benny goodman..everything! Crooning to Frank..god..what I would do to go back...Next best thing would probably to the 60's..hippies galore, sexual revolution.

by the way..my printer broke down. as usual another paper jam that i myself can't fix anymore..hope HP doesn't charge like it that last time..wish me luck with charms..

Okay i promised myself to be more..ahem..less talkative in my blog since it is too long..even for myself to read..what more you..therefore less fucking kuwento for you i guess! hahaha. anyway as usual froshies are dumb fucks..like us..not knowing what to do anything. enrollment was ok..fast..but dumb..really dumb. hahaha. who would want a 7:00 am class!? Artapre no doubt...damn! and we didnt' even fix it..hay..thats life...at least we would know what to do the next time wouldn't we? and the sad thing is that our block is separating...damn..Am downloading the whole album of chicago altough i think mom would buy the original..one of the few who believes in anti-piracy..the wonders of kazaa.

2003-03-08T19:11:00.000-08:00

NEW FRIENDS / OLD FRIENDS

What is it with us people that whenever we meet up with old friends, it seems to make us feel younger? Like we have a reason to act when we were in grade school..or probably for us...in high school! haha. As usual we ate at..duh! Conggo Grill. New deal for the barkada. Everyone who will be celebrating their birthday will have to treat all of us at Conggo Grill. El Pueblo to be exact para naman gitna sa mga North girls. haha. Kacy, if ever you'll be reading this which i doubt, those hirits that I made, pang fun time lang iyon ah. Dont take it too personal. I had lots of fun with you though! Especially in Dave's car! haha. By the way, dave! thanks for the ride ah! Even though we live at exact opposites! I know naman na you want to spend more time with jee eh! KA-CHING! haha. joke!

What is it with jokes? Are they really half meant? I'm thinking yes...since how in the world did you know what to say when you're not even thinking it? Jokes are something that gives you an excuse to express yourself without having the risk of hurting someone you love. Naks! But its true, everyone makes a joke, it's sometimes sad to think that I myself do that once in a while. Although i know how it feels to be joked about but know that that is the exact thing that she wanted to say to me. I think there are two kinds of personal jokes. One is the thing where in you joke around with someone about her personality or anything about that person. The other one is where you want to tell her something in a jokingly manner. It may either be of entertainment for others or out of concern. Another thing is that we joke about things to let ease of the situation. So everyone will be more comfortable when moving on to the next topic of conversation. I think that is one way of putting it in a good way. Or maybe is it because we get so comfortable with one another that we tend to already know how everyone will react to the situation, therefore if a good reaction comes by, we do it again and again. Someone needs to make a book on the theory of jokes! Pinakabagay si Kali and Baba!

As usual, it was one of those dehydrating weekends. Had too much to drink. When we went to Ponti, I think everyone or mostly everyone wasn't having that much of a good time at first. We were too fucking quiet for someone who is at a bar. I think we were too eagerly excited of seeing one another again in Conggo that everyone just got tired of laughing. Or was it just me and Babs... Really good reason for getting tired if i do say so myself. Good clean fun. Kim made us libre a pitcher of bend me over. Which I can say is a total fucking rip off! Too watery! It was a good thing though that we were getting into the "groove" hahaha a few minutes after that. People were being more at ease with the crowd. Sounds were getting louder. People were getting more drinks. More drunks. More yosi. More new people were coming. Thus my topic of new friends/ old friends. Got to meet some blockmates of German whom I haven't seen for such a long time. Its funny because I wasn't even that close with him in high school and seeing him again, it was like old friends, but we weren't. Or is it because that its nice to just talk to a familiar face. I met his friend JP who I told him to go grab a shot since there was another pitcher of Bend Me Over, a more sulit one! 10 times better than what we fucking had a while ago. Sue Ponti! just kidding! Oh well bawi naman. The hit that we were looking was twice in that pitcher so I guess that makes it equal. The second funniest thing at Ponti. When people were rushing to have their pictures taken. A sure sign of a barkada. Kim send me the pictures! The numero uno funniest thing at Ponti was when Kacy, Doy and me. PERVS!! just like she! jeez she! what kind of a hirit was that with the imaginary man!?? Straight of Red Horse, Red Horse and Rum Coke. It was good. Always funny seeing Kacy drunk. and of course everyone! Hadn't smoke as much as Jee! Grabe chong! what the hell?! RECORD BREAKER!

After ponti we decided to go to Industry. Everyone wanted to dance. Kirb, Erica and Danny didn't follow. Dont know why...since Erica, kaw yung dancer eh! haha. Sounds at ponti is starting to deteriorate..its too boring. Before it used to be so much fun to just dance or sing out loud. And they keep on playing the same songs everytime I go there. I saw the computer and it was only a fucking winamp that they use for the tracklistings! damn! its that easy to make a bar! its just the connections that you have to make it go strong. Anyways .. industry was fun since we started to dance! Siyempre bigay na bigay since everyone was already tipsy. Karen, you better learn how to dance! good thing doy is a good dancer. hahaha. Down Down Down Down...haahaha kidding. As usual R&B night so it was pretty obvious what they were playing! Like I love you is and will always be a nice way for everyone to keep on dancing. I don't know why..probably the beat...as well as any missy / eve / nelly song. Damn! That sure was hell of an exercise since I dont think I still had any "tama" left after dancing. And my feet fucking hurts. Kacy had slept a bit in the "lounge" area..too funny! her mouth was wide open! hahahaha.

What else...DAVE you drive like a fucking lunatic! But i love you for bringing me home! hahahaha. Naku baka magselos isang tayo diyan! kidding! Passenger seat ka naman eh.

2003-03-08T18:10:00.000-08:00

Added TOP 10 Songs

Just renewed my top 10 songs! nothing..check it out if you want..mix genres.. so all for everyone.

2003-03-05T05:21:00.000-08:00

ADAPTATION

This is by far one of the best fucking movies I have ever seen! Being that the span of my existence is only fucking 19 years....but hey...feels so good after watching a really great film. And who would have thought..I don't even like Nicholas Cage but Charlie Kauffman is a GOD! I mean who wouldn't pass up seeing Meryll Streep go high on an orchid? I wonder how it feels like for someone who has a twin, and watches them die. It will be like seeing yourself die..I guess it is possible to face death twice.

I repeat..CHARLIE KAUFFMAN..you are a GOD! and if you dont know him..shame on you! kidding. He's the screenwriter of "being john malcovich" sick yet perverted mind being shown in a very honest way. I think that's what symbolizes his style. It's too focused on himself yet we still love his weird self depreciating way of how he portrays himself. I guess its people seem to think now this is a very honest and true to himself man...yet we think "thank god we're not him!" The movie was so good that despite its lack of conflict..its still a fucking terrific film. You'll just keep on guessing where the film was going, and yet in the end, it all makes sense.

Now let's go back to Meryll Streep..she's so gorgeous in this film...the more they age, the more beautiful and gracious they seem to become. Take example Michelle Pfeiffer. Need I say more? I mean I don't think the producers would have put Meryll Streep to play a drug addict and someone who's having sex up on the big screen, now would they?

I just ate DURIAN! yes DURIAN! but wait! its from Bangkok! God! Do I love fruits from Thailand. Everytime I go there, I dont go for the shopping but for the food! Oh my God! Red Curry! Green curry! Mild Curry! Curry Curry! I feel my mouth watering...damn! Someone hand me a tissue. Just kidding. Anyway the thing is, despite its god awful smell, it really is superb. I love it! And someone once told me that only a true lover of the gourmet would love durian. Too ...hmm...i dont know but it just tastes good. The durian is said to be an aphrodisiac. Aphordisiac is such a long word for being horny! hahaha. Anyway thing is I am proud to say that I am immune! Am not feeling a god damn thing...hehe. PERVERTS! I have a feeling that alot of perverts are reading my blogs..yes jeelai! thats you! hahahaha kidding!!

It is pretty weird. I wasn't expecting to be loving Adaptation. I wasn't even excited when watching that film, it was the only film that I haven't promised Jeelai we'd be watching together..so there ya go. Anyway the thing is..its really funny because the more we expect, the least likely that thing meets what we've been wanting to see or even hear for that matter. Take for example Four feathers. I was expecting so much being it an epic / romance / whatever...having wes bentley, kate hudson and heath ledger. When you see Kate Hudson, you just feel her charm oozing out of her. Gotta love her in Almost Famous. But instead, her lines were too short and too simple. The plot was not at all contriving. In fact you didn't even need to guess what was going to happen. It was all about a fucking man who wanted to show that he wasn't a coward by returning all of the feathers that his friends gave to him for backing out of the war. What the hell?!? Other than that...Hero was another big dissapointment. so as to Mano Po! I could name a lot of films that had NOT at all surpass my expectations.

"WE ARE WHO WE LOVE AND NOT WHAT LOVES US". - Adaptation

Adaptation is what makes us weak. When we adapt to our environment or should I say problems, we tend to let things ponder. Through Adaptation, we become what has become a part of our culture. Accepting everything and trying to not be an individual. I think this what something that I learned in this movie. Its either you think adaptation is good or bad. Through Adaptation, you survive but do you feel that you are ALIVE?

2003-03-05T01:13:00.000-08:00

NEW DESIGN

Jesus christ! this is what happens when you have too much time on your hands..well actually just for today. Decided not to go to school since travelling for 1 hour and 30 minutes isn't exactly worth it for 2 hours worth of classes..do you think so? Or am I just plain fucking lazy as always..damn! got to get rid of another nasty habit.

How do you find the new design?? I made everything, which is good rather than depending on blogskins...god! didn't know that this was hard work. hmm..comments anyone? like it? love it? hate it?

2003-03-05T00:15:00.000-08:00

testing testing

2003-03-04T03:57:00.000-08:00

BIG BOOBS or small boobies, which do you prefer

People are never satisfied. One would like to have bigger breasts...the other wants smaller. We are never happy with what we have. Be it with physical assets or anything! Fuck! if there was one person who is completely happy with what she has....YABANG! haha kidding! we should be happy for her or.. him.. Women are more uncomfortable with how they look. I once read in a magazine..being cosmopolitan..that the #1 thing that we think of while having sex is how we look. Isn't that funny? Having nearly an orgasm, then go praning because you're worried of your fats jiggling while doing the nasty...or even your cellulites showing? Its weird to be thinking that when you already decided to go the distance, which I think mostly requires you to take off all of your clothes.

Back to breats..yes breasts... women have them. men what more of them. Seriously..what do you guys prefer? not just guys persay but girls too. I had this conversation with a friend of mine recently, and we were talking about breasts..our breasts. hahaha. PERVERTS! I wasn't satisfied with mine she wasn't satisfied with hers. Like I said, women aren't satisfied with what they got. Never is. Another thing is that when women have their breasts done, its always the girls who gets to know firsthand. Its like a radar or something. But when guys.....forget it! Eyes before the brain!

My friend got snatched a couple of days ago...Was really traumatizing for her. Thank god i wasnt wearing any jewelry at that time. She was pretty shaken up thinking that she was the toughest out of all of us. Once you're there in that situation, I don't think there's anything you can do. It is quite interesting to see her still wearing a necklace. So people when you do decided to commute please keep all of your jewelry..you still want to keep your belongings right? What low lifes would do this for a career..fuck! what the hell is happening with these fucking people? Too lazy to do anything but risks their lives crossing through EDSA! Think first before you ride.

It was my first time to watch a soap opera. Since it was directed by Rory B. Quintos, I decided to give it a try. And it was really good for some reason. Can you believe it? crying on the first few scenes? Kudos to Eula Valdez and that kid.

A lot of people are now reading my blog..hopefully continuous...anyway the thing is that I don't think i would be that comfortable for everybody to read and comment on my thoughts being that there are unrationalized and all. however..who gives a fucking shit? I did upload it here in the web, did i not? Anyway I just hope that you people wont take my ramblings that seriously...its just rantings...if you do read my blog..please leave a comment or a message in the tag board. PROMO ba?!? haha. it would be nice to know what you think, even if you do criticize me..lets just stay friends, ok!? hehe.

2003-03-02T07:21:00.000-08:00

FUCKING OVERLOAD

Damn! i dont know what's been happening to me but all i can say is fucking information overload! damn! i even passed to go out for the weekend with family and friends just to study for a fucking test, which i'm still having doubts if i'll pass! 98 fucking muscles includding origin, insertion and action! DAMN! DAMN DAMN! hahaha nice to express it out loud.. and what's worse was that I was craving for a cigarette the whole time since I needed a break...lots of breaks...well ...you guessed it. I did smoke here in the house..i broke my fucking rule! god..i can't believe it. this test better be worth it. Dont worry mga chongs who are becoming fans of my weekly rants (hahaha) ...only one stick..sometimes half pa lang. been really guilty...what's weird is that the more you get guilty the more you do it..the more you fucking hate yourself for doing it....Think about it, we keep on doing it even though we dont even enjoy the moment...so please stop me of this bad habit!

Yes jeelai! he is my lover! secret lang kasi i dont want to be the center of all those starbucks talks we'll be having! and besides we don't even have starbucks chit chat anymore! hay...

God...It's been a really weird day. Haven't been going to mass for like a month already since mom is either out of town or doing something..anyway mom, wes and i went to mass and she told me that somebody was checking me out. then wes told me that his friends like me din! Yes my head is exploding as of this minute!! hahaha. kidding! seriously...just weird. i have a weird yet frank but certainly loving family! I'm thinking they just want to strengthen my ego...Besides friends and family dont go together as what my brother kept on saying.

I just saw Kailangan Kita for a gimikless friday..god..i kept on crying and crying...seriously bawling my eyes out. Hay..i just love these kind of movies..good acting..really good love scene that you wish you were in her place..good cinematography..very romantic song...what more could you ask for?!? the thing that i was so proud of was that this was a filipino film. thank god for rory b. quintos. and the cinematographer was a girl too. something that was not of the ordinary. I think what I'm trying to say is that Filipinos should be more aware of what Philippine cinema has to offer other than patronizing these pathetic soft core films that we do just to make easy money.

And yes! I would kill to be in Claudine Barretto's place in that love scene! hay..or am I just fucking lonely?!? not that i would want aga...richard would be a rather more manly physique. Is it me or is Aga starting to look a lot like Jollibee?

TAKE MY BREATH AWAY KIND OF KISS

What I would do to have a take my breath away kiss....this is not the kind of kiss where in you feel your knees go weak. In fact its that exact opposite...Its where you breath in deeply and do I mean deeply cause you'll hear her breathe as if it was her last breath. Your leaning your whole self towards him. Your heat beats faster than normal Letting go of all awkwardness. What you do is that you usually tip toe because of all the euphoria you're feeling. Being high on a kiss. Now that's what i call a natural high. The description that I'm doing has no justice to the kiss that I have just mentioned. Its like giving in to him fully..although not sexually. Sometimes a kiss like that is just what a girl needs.

"Sana maulit muli. Ang mga oras na di nagkaraan. Bakit nagkaganito? Naglahop na ba ang pag-ibig mo. Sana maulit muli. Sana bigyan ng pansin ang hilig ko. Kahapon. Bukas. Ngayon. Tanging wala nang ibang mahal. Kung kaya ako iwanan ka. Di na sana aasa pa. Kung kaya kong umiwas na. Di na sana lalapit. Kung kaya kong sana. Ibalik ang kahapon. Sandali di magbabago. Wag sana nating itago. Ang pagmamahal na wakas. Kung ako'y nagkamali minsan. Di na ba mapagbibigyan? O giliw tindiin mo ang nais ko. Ang aking kahapon. Sana maulit muli. - "SANA MAULIT MULI - REGINE VELASQUEZ"

I just love singing to this song...too depressing but love it. Something out of my childhood I guess. And this reminds me too much of my mom. Although will always be a favorite of mine. If you guys are thinking what i'm thinking..this is not about somebody but cherishing the moments that I have..sometimes moments like these are all we have in life...

2003-02-25T07:14:00.000-08:00

Speaking of duckie...

Dave! I'm not sure if you know this movie (pretty in pink), but you talk so much like him. Its so funny! if you haven't seen it, go rent it! You are the except same thing that Duckie is in that film other than having some financial crisis...and weird fashion sense.

"TRY A LITTLE TENDERNESS" by Otis Redding. I love him! Classic will always be a classic.

2003-02-25T07:11:00.000-08:00

DUCKIE + CHOC + CIGGIES = INDIGESTION

Jeez..this is not a good day at all. Well sort of. Went to Madison to have all my pictures developed. Jeelai and I had cake at Kooky Lucious. I must say that this is the best chocolate cake that I have ever tasted. Mouse with dark chocolate with nuts at the middle then white chocolate, there's 3 layers of chocolate I think..MUST TRY! although quite expensive. Chocolate was very rich so it'll take a while when I eat there again. I saw it on channel 32 for coffee talk.

Chong. just sing.."Complicated" by Avril Lavigne (Baduy but true) cause you are going psycho on me right now. hahahaha kidding aside! Baka magexercise ka na naman!

I was watching Pretty in Pink a while ago. Other than tacky New wave, this is a really good movie. Better than most of the teen movies that I have seen in my generation. I wonder why, despite all those used cliches its still better than lets say "she's all that"...etc. Is it because Andrew McCarthy was just so fucking cute or what? He's so adorable! And their kissing scenes look so real..rather than now where its so choreographed. Think about it...a director actually choreographing how you should kiss..and here we thought it was natural on instinct...hmm..are there really any bad kissers? PRACTICE PEOPLE! I love 80's teen movies (pretty in pink, breakfast club, st. elmo's fire, etc..) despite ugly clothes, cliches, and too much hair spray.

Is PMS actually something that you alter? For example, before cramps must have been hell for someone who has it every month, then here comes a new lifestyle, therefore having your monthly cramps transfer to lets..say..more emotional? All of a sudden..tah dah...no more cramps. Is it really possible? I've been having this conversation with this friend of mine who seems to have lost her cramps yet has some fucking emotional breakdwons all of a sudden. Am i making any sense?? Which would you rather have then? Cramps or emotional breakdown? I once read the more it hurts in another place, then you forget the pain that remains somewhere else.

Fuck man! i am never eating any spicy dilis ever again! They came from thailand and I just kept eating and eating since i love spicy food. Well the thing was that I had them with a very big glass of ice tea. Not good! Tastebuds overload! Not fucking good at all. Spicy and sweet just made me have indigestion. Hope I can concentrate the next day...just remember if you smell something awful it is not ME!

What the hell happened with Sex and the city!?? I kept on watching the replays then here comes a sudden replacement, called "the mind of the married man". It's so fucking boring! Who cares what a married man thinks!??! all sex sex sex. Its better to know what a single gorgeous career woman thinks. Think about it. more emotional relationship crap, fashion, multiple orgasms and yet sex sex sex. Isn't that more interesting? and besides they used the same formula. One who's an oversexed married man. Another who's so freaking bullshit that he's so confused with his life right now. and Two sidekicks who haven't established who they are on the show. And another thing, they're all columnists for the paper! They should call it MARRIED MAN AND THE CITY! how's that?? god...

2003-02-23T08:56:00.000-08:00

WARI, YARI

It was my first to try wari in Catt's debut. One thing was..yari! i want to try it again, but not for every special occasion. Nice to feel that buzz when you're still fully aware of what you're doing even if its for a short short time. Damn! Dobo's friends kept on hogging the wari so we had none left. I think somebody has to go to HONG KONG. kidding! One thing that was totally shocking was that Chesca actually tried using wari. Chong, if you're reading and I made you want to try it, sorry. Although if you do try to do it, next time we should make it a better tama para sulit yung try mo. hahaha. Better to try and know what's it all about than to look stupid.

It was also my first time to go a P1 million peso debut. that I know of. The AVP was really funny. Had a lot of celebrities greeting who I think didn't know who the hell Catt was. I think the director thought that we would be so star strucked. It was funny though. Guessing who would be next to greet. I guess we are...star struck. Hate to admit it. MARC Nelson was looking fabulous as always. HOT HOT HOT! Was expecting more from his face, but his body was absolutely perfect. If you want to see pictures, just go click my gallery at the menu then college.

Was a really long time that I was able to spend time with Jeelai again. It was fun chong, but you fucking used all our yosi!! Damn! And I thought I was smoking too much, you seem to be right along my alley. hahaha, kidding! I only used half of what you used chong! damn!! oh well, i understand naman why...and you can't drink. HAHA. kidding. not to be making you inggit or anything. Which i know you're not cause you're probably used to not drinking anyway. Best time I ever got drunk was when it was just me, she and jee at the game room in my house. Laughing so hard I can't remember what happend and belting out to songs from Reality Bytes soundtrack. Chick songs are always to great to sing to since your voice always sounds better.

The weird thing that happened at the debut was the last part, what the fuck!?? Why all of the sudden senti songs?? I mean everybody was fucking crying their eyes out except for a few of us. Who I would say are obviously single! I dont know if I would be happy or sad about this issue.

"IF IT MAKES YOU HAPPY, THEN WHY THE HELL ARE YOU SO SAD?" - Sheryl Crow

2003-02-23T08:45:00.000-08:00

GAY SEX = SHOW BUSINESS
Retrospect by Rene Villanueve was certainly something that I wasn't expecting. Not for the mild hearted. For someone who I thought was open to the sex, and that would be me, I wasn't ready.

I knew that the issues that were to be showed were something that I was already aware of, but seeing them live wasn't what I had expected. Most controversial scene would probably be the one big fucking massive orgy! priest to sacristan. matinee idol to "boy abunda". running for congress with prostitute. etc.. Everyone coming together. And I do mean coming...sexual inuendos, anyone? Damn! and i thought the priest was just for metaphors. Ang pagaakyat sa puno kapag ikaw hinahabol ng aso. Do you really think that there are priests that have sex with their sacristans? I hope not...if all men and priests are to have a sexual bond, then I definitely think faith with let itself fall. Just think about it, you are bound to be celibate, with women, then you go fucking someone else in the ass! A priest was for preaching not for peachy!FUCK!

Corruption was I think the play's main idea. It wanted to show corruption in all kinds of situations. Corruption of the mind due to drugs, scandals, and everyday life here in the city. I think that the 1st play would have had the most effect on me. A great family with deep dark secrets. One of the most used formulas in play/script writing although it always works for me. Love dysfunction. Do you think its because I'm jealous of having a "7th fucking heaven" family?? I'm not really sure...I need to get myself checked with a professional. Therapist that is! pervs! hmm..Kudos though to the guy who was wearing a t-back...had a really nice butt. Yes, women also look at the butt of the male specimen.

My mom has a lot of gay friends, and from what she has told me, they do talk about gay sex. Which she gets totally turned off so...I don't know why she still goes out with them. I guess you get used to the idea of men having sex with men. Not that I was totally disgusted about it since lets face it, women has sex with women as well. Although I think that boys seem to have a lesbian fantasy that is all wrong, porn is bad, people! I was once told that actors themselves turn into gay once they get baptized. if you know what i mean. If youre BI you'll always look for the love that the same sex gives you..more comfortable with your own type of body i guess.

What was disturbing wasn't the sex scenes or the kissing. It was more of how corrupt our society was cause let's face it, what we saw in that play was reality at its peak. Damn the media if this play even creates these scenarious as a norm for society to not act on it... I hope not.

2003-02-18T07:08:00.000-08:00

sex, socialites and the city

Jeelai once told me that I was really Carrie.

Carrie being that I was the one was the most opinionated ? and the most sexy..kidding, chong!

Anyway there are four of us, surprise surprise. Me as Carrie. Jeelai as Miranda. Karen as Samantha and Sheryll as Charlotte. This is what is nice. We are the closest of friends. We go to starbucks for coffee and ciggies to have surprise! a talk on sex, boys and relationships. One thing that was weird was that we were once kidding aside on who we were in the sex and the city characteristics, and our personality actually fitted each and every one of them.

The thing was when I started writing for this blog, or my so called journal. They told me that I think and write like Carrie. That's a very nice thing to say for someone who just started ranting on their thoughts. I should write for a paper!! Damn! if only I could. I read columns almost everyday, and people really suck when it comes to that. All of these socialites writing about everything they know, crap! There are only a few writers who I could say are really good. I'm not saying I'm better than them, cause hell, writers block is for everyone. But the thing that bugs me the most is that these fucking people only get the job just because they're a part of that crowd. We get excited of what we see, but do we actually read them!? Or are we just looking at the pictures? Think people! Give those jobs to people who actually knows how to write and to connect with people. Who cares, if they don't look good. They're supposed to write and report, not to look good! That's why people are starting to lose hope for them. Opportunities are very little for someone who doesn't have any connections with the IT crowd.

Models, socialites, politicians, and "close" friends, is that the only world that people should live in to make something out of yourself? I hope not.

2003-02-18T06:51:00.000-08:00

MANILA GIRL

For the past two days, I was with my mom's employees. We were showing them around Manila. They were here for having a seminar in Bench. My mom's family is expanding, let's say the family business. Anyway so they're going to franchise Bench for their store, and they were all complainining, not because of Manila, but the training was so simple that they were bored. It was funny. It's nice to see that they know more of what Manila marketing is than the people here. My family is from Pagadian City, a city in Zamboanga Del Sur.

It is always nice to see that they don't give in to the hype and monstrosity of what Manila is.

But, wait. there is something else. There was this girl, my mom's employee, Vanessa, I just learned that she was as old as me, maybe even younger by months. She was so amazed of what Manila is. It was so different from the province. We took them to a movie, and watched Shanghai Knights. Another new movie for the week. Tomorrow I might be watching Daredevil. I don't know about you but its really funny that I've been watching movies simultaneously since last week. Anyway back to the topic, Vanessa was this girl who I was the exact opposite. Or maybe not. Great Lights, Big City. That's what they always say right? Granted that she more experience than I, although I don't think she knows that. She's more shy or maybe is it because I am the grand daughter of her boss. Not really sure..but the expression on her face when she goes to a new place, it just lights up. Its like a kid who's left alone in Disneyland, or merely a candy store.

This is what makes us great. What's nice is that we get to take our environment less for granted. We seem to be more null to what seems new and exciting of what our city can bring to us.

Although I am not particularly saying to be more nationalistic of other surroundings. Thats what I hate of the people living in the Philippines. Most of the people I know wants to go out and stay in another country, thinking that there will be a better life. Is that really true?? I don't think so. If you are who are you in your country, what more in another that demands more from you just because you are not one of them. You need to work twice as hard as they do. You need to prove yourself to them. But thats not it. Working is not something that will discourage us to be accepted and to be able to survive. It is more of thinking that most of the people in our country wishes to get out of it. Yes, there are troubles, but don't you even think that there will be the same problems in another place? Just not that exposed? Or perhaps, there are worse problems that overshadows these problems that we have here in our country.

I was replying an email to my friend who says that she wants to live abroad and all that shit. I was pissed off, but of course, being the good friend that i am, i chose to rant and cermon about the whole thing, rather than point out the problem of her decision. The most entertaining thing of it, was that my friend, of whom i thought was the one who was most likely to live abroad. She sided with me that there is still hope for our country.

Just like Vanessa, there will always be people who wishes for me. Ambition is good for everyone, just don't get too much ideas that we in turn tend to lower ourselves into thinking that the place we live in at the present is the lowest of the low and always wishing for more.
HOPE IS STILL WITH US.

2003-02-15T23:19:00.000-08:00

FUCKING SINGLE / MOVIE MARATHON

Damn! this weekend was certainly one of them. I was at home most of the weekend, watched a lot of romantic videos. The English Patient, Minsan Minahal Kita, Gamitan and In the Bed Room. Not only that but I watched Hero, Life as a House and White Oleander straight as well. Damn!

It was a good weekend since I haven't bummed around the house for a very long time. not that I didnt had the time to go out, i was supposed to go out with friends but wasn't up to it. damn! the traffic was hell! Wes told me that his friends were looking for me at wasabi...damn! didn't go though...had a massage. What a way to spend valentine's day.

The perfect way to spend Valentine's Day when you're single is to have a relaxing and unstressful massage along with some good tear jerker movies. Minsan Minahal Kita was a really good movie. It was something that I needed. Sharon Cuneta was really good. First time i noticed that she was good at all. It was directed by Olivia Lamasan and I recommend everyone to watch it. English Patient was a bit dragging but very nice at the end. I love Kirstin Scott Thomas! She is definitely one of my favorite actresses as of now. Thank God for good acting.

I am a..HORSE

Horse

What Is Your Animal Personality?
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2003-02-13T08:32:00.000-08:00

THE KIND OF MUSICAL

There's no day but today... You are Rent,
the modern remake of La Boheme. You show
the life of artists in New York "at the
end of the Millennium." You're depressing,
you make people uncomfortable, and your music
is amazing.

What Musical are You?
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2003-02-13T04:35:00.000-08:00

Good Movies / Bad Movies

I just watched white oleander, and despite its lack of popularity amongst the viewers, I found it intellectually entertaining. That's a hard thing to come by this time. I don't know why but I'm really attracted to these sort of films. Where in there is domestic disturbance. Something that I can relate to, probably?Although something that i know is a scenario much worse than mine. I think that's something to be comforted by. Knowing that there's a life much worse than yours, so just live life and fucking move on with little angsty problems.

What do you guys think?

What I liked about this picture was the character of michelle pfeifer who seems so strong and determined, wasn't at first. It was all just a fraud to not let her daughter be hurt of her past. Damn.."The price of belonging to you." That has got to hurt.Just go watch the movie! I recommend it!

Hmm..as for "Hero", which was a movie that felt the need to prove itself to much. The movie was totally overrated. nothing compared to crouching tiger and hidden dragon. First of all, the plotline was just to short. Different stories of who killed who. Needs more definition! Not more turns. That was one of the weak points i think...Cinematography was great but was just too much..it was like zhang yi mou was trying to prove himself to the international market that he overdid his talent. He showed to much in such a very short pan that turned to drag the film. Although it was good, it was just too much, you don't reveal everything that you have in just one scene. The acting was ok but the script was terrible! I think this was more of a martial arts film rather than the making of china epic. I preferred crouching tiger hidden dragon because there was more drama, fight scenes, and a lot of history based on what china was like in myth. The script and the essence of the characters were there, you could see a transition. Im not saying that zhang yi mou did not do a good job, i'm saying he could have done more with such a fine cast and BIG budget. What Ang Lee did was openned the market for all asians.

I dont know about you but there are only few movies that I can say are really good. I saw two weeks notice last week to have a not so non brainer movie that will make you want to get into the relationship crap. but no...it wasn't like that. they didn't have chemistry at all. just because you're both good looking, doesn't mean that there will always be sparks. There wasn't anything there, she was too boring. Clumsy yet still boring..what gives? The acting just wasn't there. Although KUDOS to hugh grant for being such a terrific kisser.

SENSATIONAL MUSIC
Was there a time when you just needed to close your eyes to just feel the music? I tend to do that a lot. Before I was really self conscious when I tend to close my eyes to just have that overwhelming sensation that good music does to you..but now...I don't. I think I finally reached a point in my life when I don't give a damn what people think..well maybe a little. but not as much. People don't seem to understand the wonders that music can do to you, how relax you can feel with just the first few notes of your favorite song, or how excited and reved up you get when you listen to great house/funk. Filipino ballads are something that I learned to love as well. My mom has been very influential when it comes to my taste in music. Soul, Jazz, Old 45's, World Music, Chillout. When its my dad, Rock, Alternative, etc.. We should tend to be more open to what the world has to offer, even though they come in little packages.

2003-02-03T05:07:00.000-08:00

4 AM AND SOBER

Hmm...if you're wondering why i haven't been blogging its because i didn't had the time and my computer had to be reformatted cause everything went wrong.

Last Saturday, I went to Lulu's debut. It was ok but the program was really really long. I didn't know that Lulu would actually believe i got her a 4000 watch! hahaha. that was a good one. We went to grilla in rockwell afterwards. It was ok but the problem was that I guess it wasn't the same since we were all complete so we weren't used to it. But the fun thing was that we got to sing out loud, as in really loud."What's Going On" is always a fun song to get the people more lively. Anything cheesy and loud. Lulu got to wear her debut gown. as in complete with balloon dress with trail, and don't forget the tiara to grilla! That was hillarious. People were all staring at us. Thank God I only wore a cocktail dress although people seemed to think that we came from the prom or something..pretty embarassing although who cares since we knew that we didn't.

Got to met some Bacolodian boys..it was pretty nice, although this one guy kept on forcing us to drink more, especially chesca, who doesn't drink. so wasn't good. Was too flirty i guess...it was weird since we just met the guy and it was like he knew us since before..was too fresh i guess. He was pretty cute though, although I think he knew he's good looking. That's the problem with someone who know's they're cute. They have a bigger head than the rest of us, although it's pretty nice to flirt with them since they're easy on the eyes and talktative, so no loss.

I just found out that people from Bacolod and Cebu don't get along at all. Cebuano's are barat while Bacolodians are too mahangin and flaunting a lot. To who is better, there is none, its just that culture makes us more biased i guess.

I went home 4 am and I was sober. Damn! It was good and fun but something was missing. Liam kept on texting me to go to Ponti, although I couldn't. Singing with the group when drunk is and will always be fun. Can't wait for Boracay! Sun, Sand, Drinks, Guitar..What more can you ask for? CHICANE! hahaha. To everyone whos reading, please leave a message in the TAG board who can come to Boracay. Date: Before or After Holy Week.

Jeelai, if ever you're reading this, really sorry if i wasn't able to talk to you sa phone ah, I'm angry kasi eh! joke! it's more of been really busy kasi because of school and deadlines..etc...Damn! What more when in med school!? Wish me luck!

Had to dress up as a turtle a while a go. Very embarassing although thank God people were actually laughing at us, which is good since we were supposed to be funny. Had everything, the shell, the bonnet, face paint, crawling on knees and elbows. You name it we did it. I'll post pictures some time next week. We even sang to the class. It was a short skit. Think Toy Story meets Jurassic Park/Land Before Time. Hoping that we could get a good mark. This Friday is already another mid term and Monday is two more midterms! What the hell am I getting myself into??

2003-01-26T03:43:00.000-08:00

BLOODY "Shrimp" WEEKEND

This weekend was very very weird..and good at the same time. Talking about good makeout songs with the family on a sundays is very funny and also a bit awkward. haha but everyone was cool about it so no problem. Although i think my mamitz was a bit startled of how open we were in the family regarding these things. Even my mom pitched in. I said something about norah jones, and marvin gaye. Wes said something about french acid jazz. Patrick said punk. Mom said Barry White and agreed with me on Marvin Gaye. Is it me or are we the only family who talks like this?

Okay starting from saturday..Was very late for Catt's AVP at wack wack country club since the pick up was at the casa and wes was at school so i had to wait for him to get back home to bring me there. Didn't know that entrance to the country club was at a different venue so Wes got really made at me. It was very embarassing since all of our blockmates and her family were waiting for me. And then when it came to the AVP all i could do was just laugh and look dumb.Camera shy. When we came to Catt's house, it was so weird, since it was only my second time yet i felt so at home with her and her room. hmmm..not what you're think. It was a lot of fun. I felt like we were going to have a sleepover. All of us in her bed.. making fun of catt and her secret dates that she marked on her organizer..I wonder why?! haha. kidding! (Raine, Me, Catt, Chesca, Aimee, Recto, Bilog) We watched the cotillion dance and was it long..really long. We had to wait for such a long time just to watch paolo santos since most of them wanted to go to art ave. We left about 10 to 10:30 from Marikina. The problem was I wanted to go to Ponti since I felt like dancing.

Things starts to get worse from here..Was at Art Ave listening to Paolo Santos..it was good, but the thing was that I don't know..just felt like dancing, i guess. We had to stay for 4 hours since he had breaks and everything. Although he did get to play #41 and landslide which I requested btw. It was good but most of his songs were all too mainstream. Too much John Mayer. Even his style was like John Mayer. It was like listening to a cd, which I didn't like. He should try to be experimental.The worst part was that when he sang Waiting in Vain and Power of Two, fuck! he used a girl's voice which was good,but, what the hell!?? Use your own voice. It was smooth and everything, but I don't want to see some skinny man doing a very good song with a girl's voice? Fuck! He should have used his own pitch..Damn! Starting to have second thoughts on Stephen Speaks right now. We left about 1:30 and everybody was already wondering where I was. Liam kept on texting me. Wes said he wanted to go home early and I didn't since this was only one of the weekends where I didn't had to do anything for Monday.Bad Anyway when we got to Ponti, we didn't got to dance since people were already chilling out. Damn fuck! It was about 2 am i think. And that wasn't it, I left at 2:30 and Wes was screaming my heard off. He said he had waited for me alone since all of his friends were already tired. Problem was that I had to bring Raine home, which got him even more furious. I don't know what to do. Fuck. This hasn't happened to me in such a long time. Was already bored at Art Ave listening to Paolo then when I got to Ponti I was already tired and frustrated since there wasn't anything to dance to! And my friends were already leaving when I got there. What a weekend. That's what you get when you pent yourself up for the weekend.

Good news is that Wes actually talked to me which he said he wouldn't for a week. I'm scared for his future girlfriend. With a temper like that....good luck. Sunday is always a forgive and forget day for our family. He screamed at me to never go to Ponti if I don't have a ride. blah blah. Never ask for favors..which I think I won't for a very long time. Although we now seem to be on friendly terms, he still seems to be a little ticked off.

The only interesting thing that happened in Ponti was seeing Liam. Had fun teasing and joking around with him. Oh and I saw Pep too. Yes, he looks better tha the last time I saw him at God's Kitchen, but I really don't remember him not being tall. Surprised to know that he still recognizes me. That's good right? Gago nga si Liam eh. He was teasing me right in front of Pep. Damn! Oh well..haha. It's really weird since I feel so comfortable with him which is good. We haven't talked to each other since grade 7.

Chong, I have a new favorite movie! Just watched LIFE AS A HOUSE since Chesca made me kulit on watching it. It was like American Beauty without that much sadness. It was very good and I loved Kirstin Scott Thomas here. Kudos to Hayden Christiansen. He was very talented, it's hard not to like his character despite its stubborness. You could see why he was chose to play Anakin. Totally different perspective on him right now. Chong, I think you should watch it. Actually I think my mom should watch it since it deals a lot with family, sparation. love, angst, drugs, being gay. everything, you name it. Eh since you and my mom are so much alike..hehe kidding. Although you should really watch it. It's really good. I only borrowed the DVD from Catt, and getting my own copy so.. just go watch the damn movie.

Pretty weird. Ever since saturday I have been eating nothing but shrimp. or prawns to be exact. I had steamed prawns at catt's house! and kare-kare. yummy! Felt like I was at the beach! picnic! Sunday brunch with fam was Ebi tempura at aji sen. Then Sunday dinner, had prawns with cream sauce. yummy! hay...had to much of iodine as of now. Love shrimp heads!

2003-01-24T07:00:00.000-08:00

HECTIC FUCK

Damn...What a day! I tried to fix the clie since my mom told me to. Had to upload almost all of the pictures that she took for the store. Only problem was I didn't fucking know how! What the hell! She slammed the door in my face! although she told me she's sorry...so all's forgotten..damn! everybody's just having a really bad day. Watched the so called fashion show at DLSU kanina..hahaha. no cute guys at all. The girls weren't so hot in my opinion..although they really were thin..so i'm thinking..hmm..got to be thin! Not that I want to be like them or anything. more of for myself and of course BORACAY! My mom just told me that I was going away with the family for the 1st week of April to some cruise! Wooppee! Beach Hopping.! That's going to be fun! Can't wait for that as well.

Just got my ticket to stephen speaks! Song for a dancer is what i'm hoping they're going to play since that's probably one of their nice songs that radio stations hadn't ruined yet. Bad news though..the next day I have another fucking test for Comparative Anatomy Laboratory! Thing is. I just took the fucking test last week! Damn! What the hell?? Hmm..Phantom Planet's Lonely Day is what i'm listening to right now..perfect song for what I'm feeling right now.

I just watched maid in manhattan yesterday..reviews? hmm...it was pretty good. Cause it's nice to see a mainstream singer that can actually act. Dont even give a fuck if one of you says Mandy Moore's good. Cause we all know she's not....Although lopez was an actress before turned singer..so..hehe. Jennifer Lopez is really good with these kind of roles, lower class turned success. The usual cinderella story that we all love. Gives people hope to useless cases. And tai was so cute...If you guys have seen "Working Girl" starring Melanie Griffiths and Harisson Ford..you'll see a similar pattern. Very similar. In fact, Ralph Fiennes looks a lot like Harisson Ford in this movie. Nothing great but good enough. More for video, I guess.Better than her last movie, Enough! haha. Really bad plot line but ok acting I guess.

I saw Kim and Janley kanina! damn! you guys looked cute. Kimmy make your move!! hahaha. kidding! I saw Shane Acuba at McDonald's as well. Was shocked that she was jumpy considering that we weren't that close in high school. We talked, but not that much since I had to go, but it was fun seeing her again. We were pretty noisy at Mcdo but what the hell. Had pretty much a good day at school. Funny thing was that everybody was screaming due to the paranoia of not passing Statistics.Its always nice to see some people get out of it. People must have thought we were high since we were shouting and laughing the whole time. Damn! The test wasn't so hard but the question of passing or not is what's bugging me...Listening to Wild Horses by Rolling Stones...perfect song...but will there be a perfect person to share this song with? I wish everybody could understand the value of good music. Just because its popular doesn't mean the song's good.

Oh yeah. Watched VH1 awards last night! It was pretty good although I was shocked to see kieran culkin won for best newcomer?..Tom Ford won for designer of the year! Damn! I really wanted Marc Jacobs to win! He's so much better than Tom Ford. Marc Jacobs has style, originality and creativity..Tom Ford is ...I don't know...good designs..but not that much different than what he did before. Just played a game of NBA Live 2003 with wes. Felt shitty after that game...lost..by 23 points! GOD! I hate losing. I hate to admit it but I really do...selfish? At least I admitted it..hehe

By the way, I just added new pictures to the gallery and a new design for the page so please do check it out. Leave a comment here on your thoughts.

Just learned how to pronounce YSL..its actually (Ives San Larraeu). How cool is that? I kept saying it over and over..haha. Better to be educated than to look stupid is what I always say. Signing Out.

2003-01-22T07:21:00.000-08:00

just a comment system :) click shout out at the end of every blog for commenting.

2003-01-22T06:10:00.000-08:00

PLAY vs. FOREPLAY

Hmm..What is it with foreplay?? Almost all of my daily rantings are about it right now. Well, thanks to a special someone, turned into to Sex and the City mode right now. Two blogs in one day...damn! I'm getting addicted. Hopefully coldplay will do me some justice in letting me write accordingly.

I dont know about you..but this isn't for me but for my friend. hmm..i think you might know who you already are and believe me..you are not alone on this one...hehe. Why is there even foreplay? Why not just go do the job? I think that's why people are just sticking to rounding up the bases...especially the guys. Easiest way to cop a feel. Or just too scared to take the risk? Having fun at the same time knowing your grounds...the only problem is what do people think about you when they know you're doing it? Easy..either just dont talk about it or know that everyone's doing it.

Now..ok.. as well know one could surely get addicted to first..kissing..then touching..then god knows what! hell raises. just kidding. Think about it. If there is an addiction, then surely there's a way to stop getting addicted to it right? My personal opinion, do whatever you feel. Just set limitations. If you don't want people to think bad about you, then don't tell anyone about it. hehe

Seriously.. if you think your guy or girl seems to be coming on too fast on you..the easiest way is to say stop. I dont know..always works for me..there are a lot of things that you guys could be doing together...kissing...sweet lingering kisses are sometimes better than fast sloppy slurping! HAHAHAHA If he still continues it then just move his hands or...head..to some place else...i'm sure he'll get the picture. if not, then he's a damn fucking pervert who doesn't know when to stop. That's what i think.

Or if you don't want to be tempted yourself...cause i'm sure almost all of us are or will be...hahaha. Movies aren't such a good idea. Too much free time and space to be doing something else other than watching. Keep your hands busy! god..i sound like a sex therapy book! (Faithless and Dido rocks!) Mga Chongs all you need to do is just voice it out. Dont think na you have to gratify him by letting him gratify you. If you guys can't control yourselves with each other...think nalang what kind of relationship you are actually having? Think if you guys weren't busying yourselves up...what else would you do? Tiba...kung panay lust..i dont see a future in it. Other way is always dont let yourselves be alone together...Dapat siguro always go out on a group and just have fun being a couple. You could however save foreplay for only special occasions..haha.
Best way is to talk para your guy/girl will know what to do. If you dont talk about it, miscommunication will always lead to hate and break up. Not a very good deal for preventing something from you know you want. hahahaha

Signing out...Comments? What is the best play to prevent foreplay?

2003-01-22T04:07:00.000-08:00

BIRTHDAY GIRL = HOT CHICK

Lulu's Birthday. Went to G4 and watched the Hot Chick. Hillarious movie! One of the funniest movies i've seen in years. I can't even remember the last time I laughed so hard! "Baseball Baseball...2nd Base...Cock vs. Roaches..." hahahahaha. Can't wait to get it on video! Sometimes you need a non - brainer movie to lighten up your day. Rob Schneider was good but at times disgusting. I guess what makes this movie a hit was that the scenes was something a girl can actually relate to. Unlike what they did with "the sweetest thing". A girl / slapstick comedy, although it didn't work for me. Can you believe it?!? Rob Schneider vs. Cameron, Selma and Christina and he won! Other plus was MATTHEW LAWRENCE! Oh my god! Total Hottie Patottie!!! Remember when I said I can do without a special friend!?? Well, I was wrong! Damn! I just need someone right now! Hay...too hot and too sweet! Just right!

What else...actually Dave if you're reading this, i'm still trying to think of something for my gallery page. not quite ready..haha. Yes! LEAP! and i don't think I'm going to attend! Thank god. I need a rest! Although can't wait to see my friends again and just laugh about the movie. too fun to miss. And might be some potential hot musician cuties. hopefully. haha.

Had some smokes at U. Was nice and comfy. Best place to smoke in G4 for my opinion. Nice sounds...not so comfortable benches...its ok...haha. Marie and I really wanted to pee so bad so we sneaked in the men's restroom at U. One problem! Only one fucking cubicle! We had to share! If you're thinking what I think you're thinking, damn you pervs! hahahaha kidding! Anyway when we were done, some guys were actually using the stalls....damn! we were stuck! too funny...had to cough out loud and made some noises for them to leave...hehe.

Jeelai. Had to cut Flip3 for you! Glad to know that you always miss me! hahahaha. kidding! Had fun bonding with you too! You just dont spend any time with me anymore! hmph! (illusion mo lang na nagtatampo ako ah!) kidding! Anyway there isn't anything we can do about it chong, but pray. it might sound dorky but it is true. If you want I can tell my mom to pray for her sa LIPA. She's going tomorrow. And about the other problems...hmm..#1. tell her in a nice way ok!?? #2 tell him in a nice way if you decide to do it. #3 Dont miss me too much cause i know you always fucking do. hahahaha

God..so much nice movies to see....Already watched Hot Chick and like i said wasn't expecting anything which was good! definitely one of my favorites in the comedy section as of the moment. Funny thing is that i dont usually like any movie by rob schneider or adam sandler..hmm.. Catch me if you can next week...Hero and Two Weeks Notice next next week...damn! busy busy..and no more money! yes the weekend is finally coming! hahaha. Have a test on statistics on friday..damn! Wish i could pass. Need a 2 to major on bs psych..wish me luck.

Damn Board still wont work! Fuck..

Okay..Marc just asked me to make him a smallville collection for Cel..haha so sweet! Smallville, special friends and wine...sounds good to me for a valentine's treat! Problem is that I wont have a date! damn! Everybody is addicted to smallville! Nothing to talk about, talk smallville! almost everyone has a smallville collection right now... jeez...superman is really super! HAHAHA LAME!

Know anyone who looks like this? Call me!

2003-01-21T07:29:00.000-08:00

hey you guys! i added a new page to the blog. its more of pictures! so if you want to check out the places where i go or what the hell i and my friends look like, here you go. just click on the GALLERY link at the side menu.

Yan Dave! Added the full size picture and more pictures with jeelai in it! Happy now?

2003-01-21T04:45:00.000-08:00

IS FOREPLAY NORMAL?

Hmm.. I've been having this conversation for quite some time now with different groups and I just can't put it into place. Some say its wrong some say its good. So what really is it? Few shocking revealations have been made to by my friends! Didn't know that people still actually lost their virginity at a very early age..very shocking indeed.
That's what you get when you get to grow up in all girl catholic school. I seem to be pretty naive when it comes to these things, and here i thought i knew everything.

I told Dave to get Wild Horses by the Rolling Stones as a good make out song. It really is DAVE so please get it. And please get the original. I'm telling you. Everytime I hear this song, it just makes my head lead into nowhere.. into some place where i want to be with someone enjoying the song as much as I do..I'm telling you! Your Body is a Wonderland is just plain CRAP! no offense! But chong...too cheesy and lame..hahahahaha. Masyadong obvious yung message that you want to show. The secret to great make out songs is the hidden message that it makes your body feel! hahahaha tiba?

Okay.. so i was at my cousin's house and it was pretty weird. I was having a pretty decent conversation with my younger cousin about boys and herself. She's 13 right now. Yes, we all know the uncertainty of it all. MEDIA is the DEVIL! she seems to categorize herself due to the stereotypings that she sees in television. I don't know.. I told her why consider yourself a nerd, when you're not? Who cares whether or not you're different from the rest! MTV/ boybands/ teeny bopper crushes will never live forever. Being different certainly is hard for someone like her who can't seem to relate with others, but its really like that. Late bloomer i guess. But damn the media for making her feel bad!

I woke up at 530 am this morning! My brother actually woke me up before the sun has even risen! Not only that! He actually had the guts to leave when I was running late due to lack of heat in the shower! Got to sleep once again, then finally woke up since I heard my mom and my uncle talking about papmpanga. hmm..good thing though! I didn't realize that I had 100 point test on Relsone! thank God! Miracles do happen! Now all I need is a very good and satisfying weekend! Can't wait!

Still trying to add pictures to this site here..if not then i'm going to make a new page for pictures alone. What do you think? DAMN tag board and comments won't even work this time! what the fuck.. just jump on to the PICTURES menu

2003-01-20T07:44:00.000-08:00

GOD! okay! i've just changed the skin for like two times already. hopefully this one will stay! What do you guys think?

DAMN! I wish I was her!

2003-01-20T05:51:00.000-08:00

Other than that, had some few talks with friends about sex and stuff..now is shibby good, when are you supposed to do it. stuff like that. not that i know any of
it. its' better to be educated than to look stupid! hahahaha.

Watching the golden globes right now! i can't believe it! Kim Catrall and Jennifer Aniston won!

The good thing about the friendly kiss was that i don't seem to think too much about having someone special...you know? Its better to realize that there really
was nothing to it..and i still know how to KISS! .hahahaha. i dont know..its just makes me feel more confident. what do you think? Having someone special
isn't something that i wont right now...i don't know. it made me realize more important stuff and SINGLE LIFE is FUN! haha. Signing Out.

2003-01-20T05:47:00.000-08:00

jeezzz..i had such a bad and yet fun day...I already realized what I actually did while on high taking v's. GOD! i couldn't believe that I actually did
that. let's recap! i fell down on the stairs in wasabi...danced with someone that was pretty hot. thankfully a friend of a friend so nothing bad happened
there. tried to climb over the fence beside the parking. fall flat on my face getting outside the car at my house. had slept until 6 pm...

what else... was still wasted up till sunday! a little..thank god my mom didn't think so... hadn't had the time to study for the midterms although
thank god i was listening during friday! what a day!!! really embarassing but i wasn't the only one who got wasted!

this was essentially the first time that i got so wasted that i can't remember half of the events that had happened! GOD!!

Quote to my self! next time: PRIVATE PARTY! wouldn't be afraid to do it again though! hahahaha although jee should be there na! and jee you're
not fucking allergic to it man!

What else..had a talk with ryan..thank god. he wasn't thinking what i thought he was thinking. all i wanted was a kiss and he did too. although his
hands thought differently...change of subject nothing happened cause i didn't want things to happen. and we were erally uncomfortable. i just the
feeling was just gone...

BORACAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can't wait. i'm already saving! going to go with my brother's friends for a cheaper package! kim said yes! a lot of my friends are
going as well. can't wait! CHICANE, WHITE SAND!,GORGEOUS TAN, HOT HALF NAKED MEN! what more can you ask? Can you believe it?!?!
PARRRRRRRRTTTTTTTTY!

2003-01-18T18:58:00.000-08:00

ok. as for the moment this is my first blog. i was actually inspired to do this by reading DAVE's blog.v3il. haha i'm so sorry
dave but its the truth though. too many thoughts and i can't just simply voice them out to jeelai or anyone for that matter.

i am in total confusion as of the moment. what the hell is happening.

okay for one thing i am never ever going to take V's again damn! they made my head spin too damn fast i can't even remember
most of the night...ok so please guys. whoever reads this...never ever let me use in a PUBLIC place. pagprivate party...hmm..
i'll think about it. hehe jeelai! so better make me bantay. jeelai got sort of in a mini rant... because i hadn't take v's with her! i cant
believe i was wasted the whole weekend when i already have a semi midterm on comparative anatomy tomorrow!! damn!! i better
need to study. if not, there goes to boracay!

IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT! Chicane's going to Boracay! I really need to be there! fuck!! that would be the best! the problem
is if i can afford?? got to save money...so bye be to bars! haha. damn! you can't even post pictures here...i got to think of a place
to post pictures.

ok now for the catch..its been a while since i made out with someone...and ryan came over and we talked for a really long time..well
for me...and i just told him straight that i miss having someone. not that i'm looking for a relationship right now cause i know that
we wouldn't work at all. but things happened. and you know what? what's nice was that we still became friends and we realize that things
weren't meant for us. I was shocked for being more confident than the usual and actually told him what i wanted. thank god he understood.
at the end, a sweet but lingering kiss...although his hands were pretty quick..told him wasnt ready.

thank god. still friends. after all that has happened i'm glad that we're even closer than ever...i think. comments?